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*hadow27
writes:so i'm a bi.. but i'm not out... certain people knows about it like my real friends... in a place where i am staying right now has a high percentage of discrimination about gay, bi, les, tran and homos hence the reason i'm still hiding in the closet... also, i don't know how to tell my parents about it... i'm 18, and it would be lovely to be out and proud to enjoy my everyday life without knowing that after i laughed real hard i'm still this person who's hiding from the truth about herself... i don't know if i'm embarrased, i shouldn't be,... sigh.. i want to be out and proud! i want to tell the whole world what i am, who i am, and where i want to place myself... but i couldnt, i'm too scared to know what would it be like after i'd tell the whole world about me... i can't take no judgements from other people, especaially in this place... i'm surrounded by homophobics.. sighhh....unfortunately, here i am, studying about myself and also i'm in love with one of my good friends... it's so hard to be in love with her, when all she thinks of me as best friend!! :'( she has a boyfriend... and she tells me stuffs about them... there are times that i don't even know how to answer her everytime she tells me stories about what happened last night... or sum kindah shit about the twon of themm... sigh... i told her about what i feel about her... it's just that... she said that she can't continue being friends with me cuz i might of it in a different way... then i told her that, not being friends with her is the last thing i wanna do... for some weeks, we have never talked the same way we used to talk.. then, she went away for a week, when she came back.. it's like nothing has happened... we went back on being normal... and there's this guy who would just turn on my jealous button everytime he talks to "my friend", and she knows that i'm getting jealous, and she loves making me jealous... but at the end of the day, everytime i get pissed off because of my jealousy, she would stop and be with me... but after i told her my feelings for her, we have never talked about it anymore... fast forward to present tense, like now, we have never been close like this before... and i love how we are so close like we're bffs iz just that i'm in love with her...... and i want to be with her... but she only sees me as her bff.. i'm afraid to talk about it anymore.. cuz i dont want to lose the friendship... what to do??? what to do??????
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 May 2011): Hi ! I can relate to your problem. I am bisexual as well but am now in a committed relationship with a man. But back in hs i told one of my friends i was in love with her. The hardest part about it was that we spent the night together making out and having a good time then after she never talked to me again. But thats the risk you take when you tell someone your feelings for them. I encourage you to try to come out of the closet though. People will judge you no matter what so just take the chance. I came out as bicurious at 15 but didnt say i was actually bisexual until i had lesbian sex and found it enjoyable as well.
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