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writes:This year has been CRAZY, alot has happened.. at the time, i did not think anything was possible to get over and most defently didnt think i would be able to move on.. but here i am .. and somehow... im stronger than i have ever been and i look back at things that have happened in my life.bad experiances in my life inspire me to focus on my future and every bad experiance results in makeing me a stronger person. I live to follow my dreams now... i used to search for love after i felt the hardest heartbrake i have been through.. but now i dont long for love... i know it will come when i am ready.i also felt different from everyone at school i suffered with dyslexia... i was the girl who was confident on the outside... but lonely on the inside... when i was younger i sufferd from an eating disorder and this had a hold of me through school and college.. I fell in love at the age of 17 and knew i had never thought love in this way before.... i gave him my all .. we were on and of throughout college and when college was over thats when we commited to eachother and are relationship was a lot stronger.. i fell so much in love with him ... when i relapsed with my eating or felt down i would go to him.. he was my rock... we started to argue alot and i feared i would loose him.. he would call me names and i sudenly saw a different side to him... me and my boyfriend broke up... and a month later he came out with the news that he was gay.. and that he had known from the age of 13... i felt like my heart was brakeing all over again... i blamed myself as people natraully do..... i dident hate him .. i knew that it must be hard for him... but at the same time i felt betrayed and lost.... my confidence was 0!!...... and i was stil longing for someone to just help me... after this happened my uncle died .. and i felt a massive knock all over again.... i felt like this was it??? .... i felt like i was being slapped in the face over and over again... i looked back at my life.. im a lucky girl i have an amazing family... a roof over my head and lovely friends.. im a loved person and there are people that have suffered far more than i have... but i felt like over the years i had been building up problem after problem.. throughout school i was told i was different by teachers.. they told me my brain didnt work like anyone esles.. and i got builed by a boy that called me an anirexic spotty cow...... i then suffered for years with an eating disorder called bulima.. and eventually i fell in love .. and got trapped in a relationship that what i feel like was all lies... and then i lost my uncle...... its all been spaced out from the age of 13 to 20 years of age ...... BUT there is good news from this story..... i feel i can finally breath and be myself.. i dont no if any of you have faith.. but i do.. i beleave that everyone has a poppose in life and that dreams are important... to long i have been drownding in self pitty and anger....... anything and everything is possible if you put your mind to it.. im now focusing on my dreams and my dream is to become a makeup artist... i did some work experiance this week on a film as a makup assistant.. and it made me look back and i didnt look at my past and feel sad or angry... i felt content and happy.. never look at a bad experiance you have been through and dwell on it... because if you go over and over things in your head.. your beat yourself up about it and your never have time to move on. i look back and smile at the bad things because i know they have pushed me in to doing something that i love... always stand tall and focus on dreams that you have dreamt all your life.. bad things happen... and sometimes it seems impossible to get out of situations... but everything happens for a reason.. i am proof that anything is possible.. im a different person from what i used to be...... be happy with who you are... love, hope, laugh and treasure every moment of your life as if theres no tomorrow... life is short and as my uncle used to say....... dont regret anything you have done. it makes you who you are.
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reader, dazzac  +, writes (23 December 2010):
i read your comments if someone bullys you or picks on you its because your interesting person they are inquistive and They dont understand you be yourself stuff them all
BE Yourself
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reader, KarlaMarie +, writes (11 December 2010):
KarlaMarie is verified as being by the original poster of the question Thankyou!
At the time you dont think it is possible to get through..
but looking back im thankful for the bad experiances i have been through.. they give me the willpower to want to follow my dreams and achieve in life!!
Im have a real passion for helping people through hard times... it makes sence when im helping others.. cause i can relate to them .. and give them that little bit of hope.
Karla
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reader, anonymous, writes (11 December 2010): I have to give you a thumbs up for pushing through that. It seems like extremely difficult stuff to go through. back my freshman year of high school my ex cheated on me and had tried several time previously to cheat on me with one of my friends, who was an ex of his and hated him, then tried to tell me he didn't cheat on me. At first he would kiss my forehead and say he loved me, give me hugs, sing to me (and oh man did he have a good singing voice), and even just simply hold my hand. He quite even acknowledging me it was like I had fallen of the world and disappeared and he didn't even care. He broke up with me a week before homecoming and I was devastated. I felt i would never love again. In December a friend of his, who was a friend with my group of friends, asked me out. We have been together four 4 years now, and are engaged. He told me about the day i had seen him and my ex talking and told me that yes my ex was trying to get hooked up with his ex while dating me. Crazy right? That was when my man saw me and thought he had died. You have to understand i'm tiny for my age. I'm 19 and 5'2". Recently he has had some problems. His dad was arrested and we were all devastated and a year ago he lost his grandfather. Then I lost a great uncle i didn't really now. But congrats on pushing through the tough and realizing that one day your true love will come and sweep you off your feet. I hope your confidence is back up though.
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