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41-50,
anonymous
writes:My Mum has always been my one and only source of unconditional love and support and the day she suddenly died was the most devastating of my life. I'm 26 and feel like I had the most important person in my life who I shared this unbelievable bond with has been ripped out of my life forever. After her death I felt like driving myself in front of a truck and for the first time ever I felt completely and utterly alone. Two weeks later I did a home test and found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend and I have only been together 5 months and he's 100% against me having this child and I completely understand his position. I have never wanted children and I used to tell my Mum that she would never get grandchildren from me only from my brother and in the past I have had an abortion. So now I find myself making this crazy decision. My reasons for wanting to keep this child are I feel like maybe this is Gods way of replacing what was ripped out of my life when my Mum died.I no longer feel so alone knowing that I will have the same kind of bond and unconditional love I shared only with my Mum. The timing is also a factor. Why didn't I get pregnant in the 1st, 2nd, 3rd etc month? Why two weeks before her death? My parents separated only a few months before and she changed her life insurance beneficiary at work to me and my brother. So now I have money to fall back on if I need it.Another factor is I've never had the ambition or drive to do anything with my life. I could never figure out career wise what it is I wanted to do so I've been a server and a bartender for years now and I've floated from job to job never really settling down.just before she died, my Mum told me it was time for me to pick something and go to school because I needed to settle down and I wonder if maybe I could never figure it out because maybe I'm meant to just be a mother right now and having a child will give me the passion to find what I want to be so that I can financially take care of it down the road. I'm a big believer in everything happens for a reason and although I don't go to church and am not overly religious, I do believe in God and I believe he has a plan for us all. My boyfriend doesn't share the same beliefs and he gets angry when I suggest these things. There's'a definate possibility I may be doing this on my own as he's already told me he 's not ready to be a family but would still be a father to the child begrudgingly. Am I making this decision for all the wrong reasons? My boyfriend says I'm too emotional over the loss of my Mum to make this decision. Sorry about the novel!
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reader, kody08  +, writes (7 November 2008):
I think that all babies are blessings and love is definatley smething you will get from your child, even if the father chooses not to stay around your baby will become the most important part of your life. It is a huge responsability but to me it is very worth it, i would hate to hear that you were getting another abortion. I know all peoples beliefs are different but abortion is killing an inocent life that could be put to perfectly good use. Even if you decide not to keep the baby you should honestly have it and put it for adoption because many women physically can not get pregnant, so i know the decision is all up to you but if i were you i would keep it no matter what other people said to me
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reader, anonymous, writes (29 October 2008): Hi
How nice when one day you may write a novel yourself ambition!!!!! Keep your baby! the father may ajust but you wont! if you do what he wants. Keep your baby and see your mum in your child's eyes and mum will help you with the baby,even if he wont. What better time to give life! and let your mums grandchild live to help you live too.
i wish you luck and healing.
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