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female
age
30-35,
*razyg
writes:hi guys!i'm so confused with my sexuality lately. let me put up my situation:since i m young (like 8) i have crushes on boys but i never really dated. just some silly childhood crushes i suppose. i dun have any special feelings for girls. then when i hit puberty at around 13, i started to realise that i have a stronger and stronger feelings for girls. i have a crush on one of my female classmate but i never let me feelings out. she was nice though, in 3 years time we became good friends. i would call her whenever i could. then we were separated into different classes senior year. i gave up and decided that i dun wan any more girl crush as i m convinced that i m straight. before i knew it, i fall in love with one of my classmate again. i would glance at her during class time or whenever i bump into her in school compound. i get butterflies in my tummy whenever she's around. there was one time that she put her arms on my shoulder and sort of pat it, it felt great! i wished the moment would stay forever. but we were never good friends or anything 'coz she's popular and i m just unpopular type :(the problem is i still have some boy crushes in my school years. but this girl crush was really strong. i mean i have sexual fantasies and desire to be with her if i could.but she went to uk before i could figure out my sexuality. so once again i gave up. then in college i fell in love with one of my female classmates again after knowing her for half a year. again another boy crush. this guy knew i had a crush on him but he acted really cool about it. but i never let the girl know that i have special feelings for her. 'coz from where i come from, gays and bisexuals are totally looked down upon.i tried to dismiss all these erotic feelings and kept telling myself that i m straight. after watching a few lesbian sexy times, i got really turn on and wondered if i am actually a lesbian or bisexual. i definitely know i m not straight since i have all these special feelings for my female companions. i do check girls out. and i have sex fantasisies with girls! whenever a pretty girl talks to me, i get all jittery and space out. lols! but i still get excited whenever a handsome guy talks to me, but not as strong compared with girls. i feel like i am a weirdo now.i never dated or anything (kinda sad) so i am not sure what i want. am i bisexual or gay? get anyone help me?
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reader, kellyxxx  +, writes (29 May 2009):
 Well I think that you could be anything, instead of focussing on what to call yourself why don't you focus on how you feel? You can decide what you are later on in life, but there is nothing immediate to decide. A lot of people are confused when they are young but as long as you are happy then you can have a crush on whoever you like. X
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