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writes:She lay on the living room floor with a glass of wine in one hand the bottle in the other love songs sang out of the stereo and tears slowly fell from her eyes everybody she knew seemed to be set on hurting her.Her heart was broken and there was absolutely nothing she could do to make herself feel better. Glancing at the clock she realised she had been doing this same thing for the past three and a half hours yet she still didn’t feel like moving no words fell from her mouth, no other thoughts ran through her mind. She could only think of him, the one who had so openly had an affair after everything he said her, all the love he showed her and knowing how much she loved him, she gave him her heart and he tore in two.She hadn’t left the house in days and now all she had to remind her of him were some old photographs which were just a blur to her after all the crying she had done.Of course, she blamed herself, thought maybe she could have made more of an effort with her hair, clothes, make up showed him every single second of every single day just how much he meant to her. When he walked out the door she never said a word she silently watched him walk out of her life and find happiness with another. She regretted this she thought she should have begged him not to go after all it might have changed his mind. Although we know it wouldn’t have.Waking up the next morning with the most dreadful hangover but what else was to be expected after a three day alcohol binge. She wanted to punish herself.With nothing to live for she just locked herself away from the rest of the world thoughts of him with the other girl ran through her mind and it was like having her heart broken all over again.Everything around her seemed to be falling apart she no longer believed in love anymore she became one of those people. We all know the type. Turning up at wedding coming out with comments such as “it’ll never last” and “it’ll end in tears” of course you couldn’t blame her, not really. She had only loved once and it was real love, true love and she gave her whole heart and more he was her life and now she had nothing. She had a right to be bitter. Everybody seemed out to hurt her and everybody she ever cared about left her. It wasn’t anything she ever said or did that made them leave though. No it was the fact that she was such a kind, caring, loving person that never had a bad word to say about anybody, she had a heart of gold.But now she just couldn’t take it anymore, she became a cold, heartless bitch that was the only way she got respect. She didn’t care about anything or anyone not even herself – not like she ever did.She no longer hated him for breaking her heart instead she wanted to thank him for making her realise that she couldn’t ever let anybody use her again.She trusted nobody, never let anybody get too close in fear of getting hurt, she became the heartbreaker now. But she wasn’t happy.She seemed so strong and unbreakable but really she was so fragile, she had a heart of glass and her biggest fear was being hurt again all she wanted was somebody to love and hold her until the end of time but she never let anybody get close enough she ran at the first sign of love and it was killing her.
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reader, Tamarillo +, writes (2 April 2008):
true...i am going through one right now. And its true that broken heart doesn'theal. I am still trying to get over the break up. I think will end up like that woman you describe...i see myself getting all guarded with my heart now..not allowing someone to get close to me ever again.
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reader, Jolie  +, writes (25 March 2008):
 amazing ...its soooooo nice and its true !
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reader, anonymous, writes (16 March 2008): Beautiful.
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reader, anonymous, writes (16 March 2008): A very heartbreaking and heartwarming look at the life of a young woman deeply hurt...As I read this I remembered the bottle of wine, The sad songs, The photos and the nights and days alone. Also I remeber turning cold and getting stronger, Then just as everything could get no darker a total eclipse occured. Thats when my heart began to open again. A huge learning curve I am thankfull for all I have felt through all the bad times and good as it has made me the person I am today, My heart was warmed and able to love again...A beautifull article LOVE MANDY XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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