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28 years later and I want to know what her sexual past was

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Question - (12 June 2011) 16 Answers - (Newest, 17 June 2011)
A male United States age , anonymous writes:

hi i have been married to a wonderful woman for 28 years. i met her when she was 16 and i was 20. i was with prostitutes from 18 till before i met her. i could not have sex with girls i went to school with and take what did not belong to me,so i went to prostitutes. i met my future wife in 1980. she was a virgin, we attempted sexual intercourse once when she was seventeen. she started crying afraid of getting pregnet and afraid of what her mother would think. i had my penis about half way in her vegina , i had the end of my penis at her hymen. i pulled out and we did not attempt again. we broke up a couple of months later, and was apart for a year and a half. after we got back together it felt like heaven to be back with her. on our second date some things troubled me. while parked i the drive way at her place we were petting heavy . she bent over and started sucking on my penis. she never did that when we where dating before. i felt uneasy. i started fingering her it felt different. before all i could get in was one finger. but now i could get in three or four fingers in her pussy. that bothered me . she gave excuses and lied . a couple of days later she confessed she had been with another guy while we where broke up, and others. it really hurts i knew her when she was a virgin, it is no easier 28 years later. she never gave me any details and she had a diary when we first met she got rid of it so i would not see what was written in it. the first time we made love the morning after we got married when i put my penis in her vegina , i layed my head down and looked away. i was crying on the inside, because she did not fill like she did when we attempted sex the first time . 28 years later and i still have a lot of questions that are killing me. i want know the details of who and how many. i have been very depressed by this lately . i have been crying a lot. i broke down and cried while we started making love this morning. i told her i needed to know details of what happened during the time we was apart . she replied i did a lot of things i wish i would not have done. is it wrong for me to ask what went own, and why could she not have waited on me. i am writing this through tears. i am depressed i have been crying at work and home. what should i do?

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A female reader, So_Very_Confused United States +, writes (17 June 2011):

So_Very_Confused agony auntI agree with Cerberus that you need to go to counseling. Not marriage counseling but personal therapy to work through this deeply rooted issue.

You guys were NOT together when these things occurred. Why does she owe you an explanation of what happened in her life when you were not a part of it?

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A male reader, anonymous, writes (14 June 2011):

"Deep rooted self esteem issues" my ass.

Retroactive jealousy is a normal emotion that comes from having a healthy sex drive and attachment to your partner. This emotion may cause lots of trouble but that does not make it a mental disorder. It is no more a mental problem than any other emotion like jealousy, anger, sadness, etc.

Any emotion becomes a mental problem when it is ongoing an interferes with daily life with no resolution in sight. The O.P. probably qualifies as a mental health problem, but only because of the seriousness of it - NOT because he feels retroactive jealousy. Not even after 28 years. That is a normal emotion, like it or not.

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A male reader, anonymous, writes (13 June 2011):

Her sex life is not the issue.

You are depressed, and you are seriously dealing with deep rooted self esteem issues that are very complex.

Get counseling help, for yourself, not for her and you, you need counseling help.

"i want know the details of who and how many. i have been very depressed by this lately"

No, this is not going to help. It is going to make things worse, even if she just had one partner and just had sex one time. This is not the issue.

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (12 June 2011):

I'm sensing you have such a good thing going and you may not be feeling 'worthy' of it or you are just plain trying to find fault with a woman who has loved you for over 25 years now or something is going on in your life rather than address it you decide this 28 year old done and dusted history is the cause...

So now you want to press the self destruct button....In life you should learn to appreciate the blessings we receive(i.e a good wife, children, food, good health, a good job etc)...It is called a blessing not cos we've always earned it but because of God's compassion and love for us.

Like the others have said, how was she to know you were going to get back together and get married??? and what about you liaisons with prostitutes???

Why are you not sweating and getting depressed over that sleeping with 'other women'.... and yes, they are women -human beings with feelings despite what they do...Oh you got a reason 'you did not want to take what did not belong to you'.....So you reckon the prostitutes belonged to you then???....Cos you paid for it???...Do you think some of those women are not married themselves today??...Please get off the moral high-ground there.

When you know the details about what happened with the other guy(s)...What are you going to do with it????..Run images in your mind till you go crazy??......You broke up and lived SEPARATE lives, she wasn't with you...That boat has sailed......If you break up your marriage I assure you that any future relationship will not be with a 'virgin'(c'mon you are a bit on the older scale and a 'mature middle aged virgin' is a rare find , except you want to go perving on someones' kid or some very much appreciably younger woman)......

So what then? and why in the heck do you think you deserve a virgin when you used other women for your own 'needs'?....Why didn't you stay a virgin yourself??.....

......Whatever happened she did it with someone else and so did you(might I say several strange women in your case)

Listen, you better seek professional help to find the real cause of you 'depression'

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A female reader, natasia United Kingdom +, writes (12 June 2011):

natasia agony auntSo what is the problem? You are with her, she is yours, and what happened was 28 years ago. It DOESN'T MATTER now. She is yours.

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A male reader, anonymous, writes (12 June 2011):

Everybody sounds surprised that this stuff is still bothering the the O.P. after all these years.

I am not surprised. Retroactive jealousy does not fade away gradually. It hurts just as much years later as it did at the beginning.

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A male reader, olderthandirt  +, writes (12 June 2011):

olderthandirt agony auntAnd so the sordid details will make you pop out of your funk? Let sleeping dogs lie. Think about the present and the future. The past is overi'd recomend you look up the lyrics to 'Dream On" by Aerosmith and live by them. there is a ton of wisdom in that one song

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A reader, anonymous, writes (12 June 2011):

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i provided the information about me and prostitutes too show how low & unworthy i am of loving her. she is the first person i truly opened my heart too , to fall in love with & i have never gotten over her. during the time we were broke up i fell responsable for everything that happened. i do not want to hurt her, but i guess i want details to get over this or punish my self. at age 17 & 20 i did not look at her as a child, but with someone i wanted to spend all my time with. we was broke up by lies told from family members , that makes more guilt on me that i let other people get in between us.

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A reader, anonymous, writes (12 June 2011):

You need to go to counseling OP, 28 years is a hell of a long time to be so hung about this and no, finding out the details is not going to help it will only add fuel to the fire because you'll be able to picture all those things in your mind. You really don't want to know trust me on that.

As the others have said you are being very hypocritical here OP, you weren't exactly the paragon of virtue when you met her either, you've slept with prostitutes for feck sake. For two years you slept with whores, how is anything she did with other guys worse than that? Does she know you did that? If she does then how does that make her feel?

Here's a quote from Bob Marley I think says all you need to know: “You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

Let it go and if you can't do that alone then go seek counseling, but take a good long look in the mirror OP, you did some very disgusting things before you even met her, your feelings are incredibly illogical because unless she herself was a prostitute then there's nothing she could have done which is worse than what you did.

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A female reader, natasia United Kingdom +, writes (12 June 2011):

natasia agony auntAre you really sure you have been with her for 28 years? Because I wonder whether you are just saying that. You sound too upset for this to have happened 28 years ago. Time heals, usually.

Anyhow, of course you have developed an emotional problem here - almost an obssession. It doesn't bear any proper relation to reality, because even if your ex-girlfriend, as she was then, had sex with someone else first, and not you, it shouldn't matter to you, because you are married, have (perhaps) been for a very long time, and you say she is wonderful. So any person with normal balance would not give this another thought.

But you can't. You are obssessed with it. So you need to see a doctor about this. Sorry, but it is very clear that only a bit of gentle professional help will get you out of this mindset. You need help, yes, but from a shrink.

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A female reader, chickpea2011 United States +, writes (12 June 2011):

chickpea2011 agony auntHonestly? And pls, don't take this in a wrong way and by no means I am not trying to be rude to you..

But, its weird. I feel bad that you've been feeling sad, depress to the point that you're crying? But, I don't understand you.

28 years later? You still thinking about something that happened:

1) 28 years ago?

2) You were not together, so its not like she cheated on you.

3) After 1 1/2 year later, you both got back together and you're sad and hurt that during that time she didn't wait for you?

Why are you feeling this way? How in the world would your "now wife" is supposed to know that you and her in the teenager years would be back together?

Please, I feel for your pain and I am very sorry that you feel this way after 28 years, but this is unfair to you and your wife. I really feel sorry for your wife, because she has to feel bad about something that she hasn't done wrong? She was not w/u. She was single. She was honest w/you 28 years ago and that should have been enough.

Doesn't make sense to think or feel this way after 28 years. If, you cannot understand the advices that people have giving you, I'll suggest you seek professional help. I feel for you, but I feel more sorry for your wife.

Good luck

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A female reader, celtic_tiger United Kingdom +, writes (12 June 2011):

celtic_tiger agony auntI have to agree with Cindy and Mr Grant..... this really is none of your business.

It is wrong to ask and want to know what went on. None of your business who she slept with while she wasn't dating you. Would you be happy to tell her about all the prostitutes you slept with?

You broke up. How was she to know that you were EVER going to get back together? When you break, you break. What if you hadn't got back together? WOuld you have expected her to wait forever? Never to be with anyone else?

So, she lost her virginity to another man. To you that seems like a cardinal sin. Yet it was perfectly ok for you to go and sleep around with prostitutes. Im guessing that is ok because you are a man?

Double standards going on there!

Are you just jealous because you didn't get to take her virginity? Is the issue that you didn't get to 'break' her? Come on, grow up a bit, you are 50, not some inexperienced teenager throwing his toys out of the pram and having a hissy fit.

For goodness sake. She MARRIED you. She has spent the last TWENTY EIGHT years with you! Don't you think that says a lot about how she feels?

Seriously, you need to get over this.

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A female reader, ml.ama Portugal +, writes (12 June 2011):

If it is that important to you and you think it will help you get over it than of course you should talk to her. But lets face it you already know she has been with other guys while you were apart, do you really need the details? Also, can you handle them? won't you feel even worst?

You both have a past. You have been with other women (even though they were prostitutes they were still women) and she has been with other men.

It hurts you that you were not her first (or not totally), specially when you were so close! You did the right thing stopping there. she wasn't ready at that point. And when you are teen one year and half is a long time. She probably got ready meanwhile or met a guy that talked her into it.

It doesn't mean she didn't love you when you dated the first time and that she would rather do it with another person. If she went almost all the way with you it was because part of her wanted it, but at 17 feelings can be confusing and it was all new to her, she got scared, panicked!

After that and while you were apart many things that she regrets happened, again she was a teen and teens make mistakes. She figured her way out and chose you. Doesn't that have some value? She didn't choose you because she didn't know better, she chose you because she knew enough to truly believe you were the man for her. She chose YOU!

We all make mistakes and sometimes those mistakes make us grow up, see things in a way we didn't see before.

You are happily married for 28 years, do you know how lucky you are? That can only mean you love each other a lot and you are right for each other. Does the past matter when you have a great present and a great future awaiting you? You made your way to each other that is the part of your pasts that is really important, the rest is rubbish.

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A female reader, CindyCares Italy +, writes (12 June 2011):

CindyCares agony aunt Why should she have waited for you ? you were broken up, how was she going to know that in 18 months you would have changed your mind and wanted her back ?

In that year and a half that you were out of her life she moved on and had some sexual experiences. Same as you did in the 2 yers when you were visiting prostitutes and your wife wasn't in your life yet.

Is your wife still crying 30 years later about all the prostitutes you had sex with ?....

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A female reader, Lizzy111 United Kingdom +, writes (12 June 2011):

I can not believe you would hold this against her that she didn't wait for you for 1,5 YEARS! Is she a psychic to know that you will be back together and was she supposed to stop events in her life for a hope that you would eventually return?

You need to be looking at it completely opposite - fine you were not her first one but you did turn out her only one in most of her life and let the past stay in the past where it belongs. There is a good saying - DONT LET A BAD PAST RUIN A GREAT FUTURE...

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A male reader, C. Grant Canada +, writes (12 June 2011):

C. Grant agony auntRight then. You are in your 50s, you’ve been with your wife for 28 years. In the two years before you met you now wife you went with prostitutes. You met a girl and tried to have intercourse with her, outside of marriage, when she was 17. You later got together with the same girl, still outside of marriage, and decided that she had done sexual acts outside of marriage, things that you had wanted and attempted. So now, after a great many years, you are thinking that she is somehow unworthy?

You going with prostitutes is OK. You trying sexual acts with an underage child is OK. You having a problem with an underage child having sex – with you – is an issue??

You should go to the police and confess to serious crimes.

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