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writes:Do you think the following letter would make the person it was sent to to reconsider our relationship: Hey,You are right nothing is more important than God or family. The pictures I have attached are of Alex. Alex moved in to the house that I lived at in St. Cloud. He was my roommates girlfriends son. He loved coming into my room. To him it was the coolest place on the planet. I don't know why, but he loved that hammer. As soon as he would see my door open he made his way right into my room. I used to hold him standing on my lap and listen to music. I would move him to the music and he would laugh, It was the cutest thing. I used to hope that one day I would get to do that with Tyler.I would like to say I am happy for you in your relationship, but I'm not. Sorry, that is just the way it is. There was a time when It would have killed me to read the letter I read this morning. I have grown much stronger. I care, I have just come to realize that I am a great guy. I have been blessed. I am very good looking, I am very intelligent, kind and sweet. If you don't want me you don't want me. Nothing I can do about that.When you got shot I had $35,000 dollars. I spent that money taking almost a year off from work. I felt that you needed me to be there 24 - 7. I was. My friends would say "what are you doing" your spending all your money. I would say that someday it would all come back and then some. They could not hear your voice and how much it meant for me to be there when ever you wanted. I know you never asked me to. That was the best part. It came from the heart. Everyday you would tell me how much it meant that I was there. How can I ever repay you you would say. You did with the sound of your voice, and that you knew that I loved you. Maybe you don't remember they had you so full of drugs.I knew that you had to keep your self-esteem. That to heal, you had to have the best mental state possible That you would still be Debbie whether you could walk or not.That is why I would not let you break up with me. It sounds like you have recovered fine. I know I drank. This is the gods honest truth. I started drinking not only to relieve the stress. But that when you called, I felt that I would be talkative, and funny etc... It worked for awhile. Then booze just messes you up. I have never in my life craved a drink. I have drank to get rid of withdraws. But I never craved one. That is why it was not hard to quit. I never really liked booze. As as a kid I was a pot head I didn't like drinking. At the end I was crying "God help me I hate this" he did.Now back to the beginning of this letter. My whole life all I ever wanted was to get married, have kids, and just love my wife and kids with my whole heart. I got married. The reasons were right just not the right person. Then you came along.Up until recently I guess somewhere in my heart I still thought it would be with you.I along time ago I thought about what it would mean being with you, and you in that wheelchair. I thought that this is how God planned it, and that if we loved each other the rest would take care of it self. The money I spent to make sure that you would be OK. is OK. I will probably never see that much money again in my life. If that's Gods plan than so be it. I work hard. Last week I worked 60 hours. (I attached a little design that I did, not my best work but OK). The only way I am ever going to make real money is to work for myself. Maybe someday.I just wanted you to know these things. I guess that I will never have my own family. One thing I have to say though. I know you you know how I feel about having a family, so why would you tell me about thinking about adopting more kids, their smiling happy faces. The sounds of children in the house. Was it to be mean? If it was, it worked. But, like I said before I am stronger now. I'll get over it. Remember when we first met and you asked me about adopting the two boys. I was so excited, that was from the heart. When you called and told me that you adopted Tyler. I thought "how cool a little boy that I could take fishing, hiking, boating. Do home work with."I am going to spend the rest of my life the best I can. I am not going to worry about not having a family. I think God knows that I know I have not always done the right thing. But, I can strive to be kind, and sensitive, and show love to the people that are, or will come into my life.You take careLoveMe
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reader, Markingbad  +, writes (31 October 2009):
 No offense but allthough everyone only posts their side of the story. Its usually possible to get a clue about whats been going down. But allthough that letter maybe from the heart. It says very little about whats happened. If you have a drink problem maybe rather than admit it you should something more constructive.
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reader, Lola1  +, writes (30 October 2009):
 Your heart is broken and I am sorry for that.To be frank and honest, if I were not in love with someone anymore, NO letter would help me change my mind. I read an attempt to make her feel guilty in this letter. While it is only natural to want someone to feel the pain they have caused us, I would advise against such attempts.Of course, I am not privy to the details of your relationship, break-up, etc. If I was a fly on the wall during the entire time you got to know this woman, I could offer you more insight.You are obviously in pain. When we hear something we don’t want to hear, there is often denial. We look for every possible thing we can do to find some kind of hope. I do not wish to give you any false hope.You've obviously invested a lot in this woman. I do wish you luck and pray that you heal soon.
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