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writes:My last flame/crush was a nice guy. He wasnt my usual bartender or rock-star with rip jean n tatts[it a style that most of them had]But we notice each other from cross the room at uni coffee shop, both us got caught checking the other out. . Kept smiling, stealing secret glance while still being engaging with our own friends, i was so looking forward to bumming into him again with out our friends.Sadly not even hour later we found out he was new sociology professor.My hope of any possibility happen went out the window, We both so embarrassed couldn't looks each other i had yell out i need help for him to come over to my group. [ no his not married, his 9years older, n his close mate of with one my network mate] After we quite professional. Clear his teacher n i student, with a small typical small talk.i,e hi how are you, how was ur weekends. Somehow he still make laugh just by being himself with cant help smile at silly quirks, or fact he find idiotic video clips funny.there this one time when our hands accidentally touch [by that i meant both went to pick up the my pen that fell. i assure you it was completely innocent]. I swear i felt both our body heat go right up, he quickly move away both acted like nothing happen avoiding any eye contact , i was sitting back i wanted my space that day everyone focus on their work so no one notice lucky. Other than that nothing happen. He will n always be a nice what if? IThough we never talk about subject, or admit to feeling [beside site this for me anyway] I will never act on it or do anything that will ruin his jobs, i respect him too much as person n as professor doubt he would either. I sometime wish he was still just that cute guy at coffee shop.this was while ago i have notice other guy even flirted n chat to others guys but none i wanted to date. sometime fantasy about him? Which what i dont get. Why is on shit day i close eye playing a anywhere bu here game. His images or his arms are around me. Ever now then i dream him. Most of the time it about showing our feelings in very sensual way, Other day i dream we in class i saw a self-harming cut on his wrist where claim it was an accident i was so pissed at him.and was so so scared for him[i actually had to go to his fb page next day just to b sure he was ok]. Why do i think about him when my upsets , or having had a bad week. WHy do i keep dreaming of something that will never be,
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reader, anonymous, writes (30 November 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThank you honesty, til recently i actually agree with you. The professor is over sea now however time to time when i need help with i email him and he does reply. Now mainly this about my trip interstate. the place i want to go is the place he was from. His send me a link and tips, i still have to lot research but he actually cut it in half.
Also lately i been wondering about the course i do volunteer at youth centers. So i do have some work in the field. I know not all but there are few but the ideal is change it more profit focus and not people. There a few people coming in the sector where i just dont get why they even doing this course, with narrow minded think and attitude. I not 100% but have been thinking whether or not if i want to remain in this sector or not. Is worth fours extra years to in to field that im slowly losing faith in .
It wasnt my intent but when i starting thinking if do leave, what could i do, and not intentionally a little voice in my head said the guy would not be your professor anymore. And all sudden he seem so more attractive.
im still in debate which path to take.
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reader, aunt honesty  +, writes (30 October 2012):
 I think this is a case of you want what you cannot have. Yes you felt an attraction between you both, but I think when you found out he was your professor you knew you could not have him which only makes you want him more.
You have said you won't act on your feelings and you no that nothing can happen between the both of you, so I guess you just need to keep reminding yourself of that. If you find him coming in to your mind then just distract yourself by thinking of something else. Also try and make more of an effort to meet new guys and date them.
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