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writes:Hey everyone..i really need your help!My relationship with my girlfriend (more like a fiance to me) for 2 + years now (we both were 17 when we started off)..ended 6 weeks back!!this is why!she was my first girlfriend and i wanted her to be my last! im not like others who could break up and just move on..im very different!! when we both started off..she was the really sweet!! we both were so happy..but as days went by she became a bit rude..i never told her anything!! 5 months into the relationship she became more rude and started treating me like $hit!! she had also cheated on me before but i loved her so much that i forgave her!!i would walk for 8 kms x 2 just to see her peep through the window (Ive done that almost some 20 times) whenever i was broke..but she didnt think it was a big a deal!! i would make a card every month for all these 2 years to celebrate our love..i would always be there for her no matter what!!her dad is very abusive and so i would comfort her..but when i would try to comfort her she would yell at me..call me bad stuff just to remove her anger..but i was too much in love to even bother being treated that way!! 9 months into the relationship she was still the same..so i told her with a lot of courage for her to not treat me like that..she promised that she would change..but never did!! she just became more and more dominant and arrogant!! she would blame me for no mistake of mine..i just wudn't revolt!! When i had an infection on my head..which was severe..she didn't even bother coming and checking me..instead when i asked her to come see me because i wanted to be with her she told me she wudn't come if it was contagious!!:(i have saved every little thing which belongs to her..even the choc wrappers which she would throw!!her mum is a very busy person..so to help her mum i would go with her to her conferences.buy grocery for her,fix her comp,do her presentations!!and my girlfriend didn't even for once tell thanks!!i asked her why she didn't and she said"thats your duty"!!i mean..she just didn't care about what i did!!she would say stuff like im so lucky..there can be no guy like you..my friends will steal you if they knew you were like this...but she would never act like as though she was lucky to have me!!I had saved money for about a year for her b'day!I got her a silver chain with a heart pendant which had a pearl in it and while giving it to her i told her that it would be my heart she would be wearing on her neck!!so anyways..ive told her a lot of times to treat me well..but every time its the same old story!and in the past few weeks we had been fighting a lot..i mean a lot!!and its mainly because she's arrogant..we've always fought but it got out of hand..so i told her that i wasn't happy with her ..but she dint change at all!!a month back we had the biggest fight ever..and we stopped talking!!even tho it wasn't my fault i walked up to her her place again and apologized to fix things between us..but she told me to go away and started blaming me for everything!!so i finally told her that i was breaking up with her..and its was kind of a relief to me!!to make this simple i was in an emotionally abusive relationship for the past 2 years!!For the first week i cried..but then i started seeing how much better my life was without her!and for the past 4 weeks i've been successful in not thinking about her that much!But now..i don't know why..i can't seem to get her out of my head!Every single moment i spent with her was VERY precious to me..i don't know if she felt the same way..but every time i kissed her..i would get goosebumps!For some reason i miss holding her hand..i miss how i could tell her anything i wanted(not that she would be interested to listen)but still i had someone whom i could tell anything and be so close to!i miss making out with her!!I mean she was right there in my arms!Im going mad guys..why do I miss her?!After the way she treated me..i shouldn't feel this way!But i loved her her sooooooooo much...there are just no words how much i did!!Why do i miss her??Every time I think about her scent, her voice, about how we used to kiss...i just become so weak!!What im i supposed to do everyone?plz help me..plz!!
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