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*inzyh67
writes:I'm 26. been with my boyfriend for 3 years. We have been thru the death of my son, thru drug habits and have come out together quite alright. He has been there for me at my lowest point of my life ever. I feel like this is something I cannot let him go because of. He is like my rock sometimes but do know that I could take care of myself and would be just fine if I had to do so. At first when I was going thru the drugs and my son just died when it was all still fresh I would blow up about any and everything. I even hit him and sure am not proud of that, the one and only time i ever hit anyone that I loved. This last fight we just had, this morning at 5:30am, I thought was going to be the last one. He has gone thru 6 jobs in 3 years. I don't understand why he can't keep one other then my conclusion of him needing a girl that's ok with him not working and her being the one who takes care of them. Now I'm def not asking for a man who supports me 100%. All I want is 50/50 with everything. He will get a job, he def does not have a problem getting a job, he has gotten every single job he has ever applied for so he is def good with first impressions and he learns quickly. But he hasn't kept a job for more then 3 months and a couple where very very good paying jobs. I have gotten to then point where I won't even bring up the job issue or even talk about it when he is talking about it, I will just ignore it because all it does is turn into a fight. Like this morning, his manager is turning the McDonalds he is working at into a Nazi training camp and he hates going there. He has been there for 1 month exactly and he was slamming doors getting ready, yelling at the top of his lungs so I was quiet until that all happened. Then I told him to calm down, quit acting that way. It's not healthy/good for you to starrt your day off that way. He thru my purse at me told me I was only trying to pick a fight. Oh and we have been struggling so bad to pay our bills. I had to quit my job because I no longer had a ride to work. Struggling to even buy food until we get our food stamps. When things are good at home they are great but when they are not they are hellishly bad. I do threaten to leave every fight because it's like the only thing I can say that might make him start to care, but this time he doesn't. He's not stopping me from packing and for some reason I just can't pack. I keep telling myself I don't deserve this but I love him so much and want to work things out. I know I will be fine on my own but I want him to care and he even said to me, "Why should I care?" "I'll be perfectly fine on my own." Makes me feel like a no body in his life. I want to work things out but there is something telling me to just go. Maybe then if I really go he will care about us. I don't necessarily need him to just care about me, I want him to care about US.
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reader, green eyed mulatto +, writes (31 August 2011):
 Sometimes love last and life brings people in our life that we need and than they leave, sometimes we have to just push on even though we want relationships to work but if things are going dry than....you just have to move on if that's what best if you can work things out, give it some time and see good luck!
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