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writes:A few years ago, I went on a holiday trip to France to visit some relatives and generally have fun and relax from work. I am not religious anymore but at that time I was (not strongly orthodox but enough that I went to church pretty much every sunday - oh and not Catholic, I was Mormon) And while there I met some missionaries (young men and women, usually in their twenties who help bring new people into our religion). They were very nice and we got along great. We spent many days together, about 10 of us. We played sports and had BBQ's together and in general had a great time! I was only in France for two weeks and a half, but it seemed like thoses weeks were years...Anyway.There was several of them who caught my interest, but one in particular was just... special. He was really nice, and funny and we joked around and flirted... sometimes I made an absolute fool of myself! (well only once really) I was sitting at a table in the sunshine on our patio in the garden, and he came to talk to me. He asked me a few things and i answered and asked him things too like "I've seen pictures of Australia - it's very nice, you're so lucky you live there, where abouts exactly?" you know normal things. But then When he was asking me a question I got distracted and I didn't hear him, and so I asked whether he could repeat and he did - but then our dog started barking and I didn't hear him again! I was not prepared to ask him a second time (I know I'm really quite foolish!) so I just shook my head and said "I don't know" :O :O :O I mean?!?! What if he asked me how many people were in my family? UGH!Anyway THAT was embarrassing...but for some reason he didn't think me silly or anything (lets call him James) and when we went to church on Saturday for a party we were in the hall together alone with the organ and whatnot. And I had sang a song to practice and he said I was good and so on - then out of the blue he bent down on one knee and started singing to me! In a playful way of course but I was shocked because we didn't know eachother that well even though I was very attrcted to him.Then after a few more minutes my sisters came in and went on the organ and sang and played, and while they were doing that I saw James coming across the room with something behind his back. I turned around and he sort of... lunged and hit me with a plastic pink and green golf iron! It hurt and obviously I said "Ow!", and after that I sat down glaring at him (again, playfully) then he sat down next to me and finally said "it didn't really hurt did it?" and I then replied "well, actually it did sort of" and he said sorry a lot.Also, one night in the second week of my holiday we all went to a friends house to go have a meal with them. We ended up staying for quite a few hours and it was almost twelve midnight when we left. But when we were there I ended up sitting on the sofa next to James and another friend (Georgie), and while I was talking to him, our faces were quite close together maybe only a foot apart (my sisters didn't seem to notice for some reason - maybe it was because they were watching the other missionarries play on the Wii) And he reached up to my face and brushed some hair of it. I don't know whether I'm looking too far into things but I felt really awkward after he did that and I sort of stopped talking for a few seconds but quickly recovered, and continued.Also when we had arrived at the house I had a camera with me which had some old photos on it. I had done a modeling pose for my sisters fashion course and I had dressed up and everything (It was a longish dress with bright colours) there was at least sixty or more photos of me that pretty much all looked exactly the same, and he asked if he could have a look, but haha I said no because I thought I looked really ugly in them. But he persisted and eventually I gave in - he looked at EVERY single one and exclaimed "cool" on quite a few of them. I felt very embarrassed but happy at the same time.So there is more but... all I can say is umm.... I really do like him, very much. Most of what I've said about him doesn't explain his personality or how we get along and what we talk about, but we have valuable conversations that are fun and interesting. I guess what I'm trying to say is, is there a chance that I could go out with this guy? Or....does he even like me?We spoke online for about a year after the holiday and he went back to Australia, me back to England. But some stupid church policy made him change his email, but he forgot to add me (and a few other friends :P ) and he couldn't contact me. It was months before I managed to find him again, this time on facebook. I saw that he had been added by one of my sisters. I added him straight away and the next day he emailed me! I was so happy for some reason, I couldn't quite put a finger on my overwhelming feelings. But for the rest of that evening I was singing to myself and just being hyper really.What am I asking here? Well, including this question I've asked about three.... but really I don't know what I am doing or why. I just need input.Thanks
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 May 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionYour answer makes lots of sense...I guess I really should try and forget him in that way, and just be friends with him. After all, from what you've said, then yes, it really is quite impossible to have a relationship with him. To be honest this reality is really hard to accept. We had good chemistry, and also liked eachother for who we are...I wish he knew that I liked him - and I wish he wasn't so far away! But in the end that's life isn't it? You can't always have what you want. :(
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