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writes:i utilize thus to express my feelings, in the open. i have a female friend, girl friend of one of my male friends, whom i met and introduced by her boyfriend. we developed a very good company and we were loving so much. this is a case where the term love does not mean living together, sex, and all..... . this was kind of love which one person can feel to another regardless of gender. a respectful love.i was passive most of the time during that occasions. it was she always maintained a very good relationship. i was enjoying every attention and love, caring that she gave. she was very special for me, she took a prime place in my heart. it turned out like that for every matter of my life i used to speak with her and valued her opinion.our friend circle had a talk about our relation. she and i were very frank between each other that we were able to talk any thing each other. i got the ease that i don't have to worry that it is to a female that i am talking to and so i have to be careful when talking.my friends used to be suspicious about us. most believed that some thing was happening around us.one day, when i got up from an afternoon sleep at my room (where i used to stay as a bachelor for studies), i saw this friend also sleeping next to me. i was wondering how easy she feels about me. most time i used to be a vulgar person but still i loved her and always had a respect. it was not required for me to act like i am good. i were always sweet with her.i wondered many times when i found that she used to be careless about her dress before me.some times i used to wonder about this relationship. it was new for me to feel this love where in no sex is involved.her boy friend was a very gold friend of mine.but i feel things started changing after some duration. one evening she called me telling that there is some urgent thing that she has to speak to me and i met her. she mentioned about another girl in her friends and told that she is a bad girl and she found out some filthy stories about that girl. i was wondering why she tells so. because i were in no way related to this friend of her. but only once i got introduced to her above mentioned friend.in the same discussion she was blaming her friend and at last told me that by mistake she gave my number to her friend. i felt some thing fishy. i felt a possessiveness.later i started meeting a girl and deciding to get married to this new girl. i introduced my fiance to my dear friend. from that point onwards i started feeling a distance from her. she was avoiding me. she always found mistakes. she was critizising for each and everything.i felt all of this things came out as part of a possessiveness.but nobody understood the pain i was going through. i felt the pain of losing my dear friend. i believed that we would be friends for the life time and the friendship is loosing in a while.can any of the friends here get me an insight into this happenings of my life. i am totally in confusion, why should this dear friend of mine be possessive about me in having relationship with other girls. my dear friend is committed and similarly i should also get married to someone for my life time. i were able to accept her as a committed woman. i have very big pain, i do not know how many will understand it.i do not know how many can understand loosing a friend to whom you had deep love. a friend who did not feel unsafe to sleep along with me. the mental pain i have is so much. can some body help me sort this out.i know i made the narration complex and dirty. i wrote what it came to m=y mind time to time......is there no love between friends this way. means being very very close and having no sexual relation.
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