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female
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30-35,
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writes:Okay, so I've had such a difficult life. Ever since my parents got divorced when I was 5, everything has went down hill. My dad cheated on my mom and left her, me and my brother with absolutley nothing. And when I say nothing, I mean... Nothing. He took Everything. My mom had gotten into 2 long bad relationships a while after all that happened and the guy was a drug addict and he would hit her all the time and just use her. Long story short, my mom got out of those relationships a long time ago and has learned from her mistakes. At the end of 2009, my mom was diagnosed with a diease. It was terrible, she was always throwing up and could barely move or eat at times. My brother got with a girl, she got pregnant and now they have a child. My dad and I dont have a good relationship and now he is remarried and is debt very bad and had forclosed on his house. Now he is living in another house where he might forclose again. My step brothers moved away. My step sister is the only one there(Idk why??!). When I got to the 8th grade, I met this boy who was so different from me. We talked pretty much everyday. One day he told me he wanted to kill himself and from that day on I did whatever I could to help him. Long story short, I fell In Love with that boy. He meant everything to me. He was the only good thing in my life. My mind was always on him, so I didnt think about all the stuff that was going on in my life. He was my best friend, and I had realized that my old friends werent my real friends so I stopped hanging out with them and they didnt like that I guess. I would tell this boy every damn day that I loved him. At times I thought he loved me too or at least liked me but at other times I figured he was just being a good friend. 9 months later he finally told me he loved me too and that I was his world, even though he didnt tell me like I would tell him. He said he's loved me for a long time but never said anything. He also told me that I changed his life. A lot of guys use to want me for sex, but I was a virgin and still am. He was the only guy that seemed different. And whenever a guy would use me, he was always ready to beat them up for me. This boy compelety took all my sadness away. He called me on the last day of school to confess his love for me(Yay!). When we were done talking, he told me he had to go and that he loved me and he would call me later........ It's been exactly 7 months since I heard his voice. He never called. That 1 phone call, he called from restricted. A few days after that phone call, I told some people about it and they were like, "Finally he told you!". Apparently he told everyone he was in love with me but me. I became very depressed and I would cry everyday for him. I kept having these dreams that we meet up again and that we still love each other. I know he wouldnt do me that way. I know he wouldnt. He wasnt like that. Ive been trying to find him. Ive tried almost everything I can. Someone once told me the only way you get over someone you loved is to find someone you love more. Since then ive met other guys that I like but most of them wanted sex from me or werent even half as good as this boy. I've been trying to move on but a big part of me just cant let him go. But I dont want to be stuck in the past and then I see him again and he's moved on. But also, I honestly feel like im gonna marry this boy one day. I dont wanna see him when it's too late. But even if I was, I'd still wanna thank him for being my friend and loving me. I want him to be happy and live his life and for me to live mine but the only way I can is to find him and get some answers. I really love him, And I dont want to wonder, I want to know. What should I do, move on and forget or keep believing?? I need advice!
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reader, anonymous, writes (9 January 2011): life isnt fair most people in our lives do let us down, its a shame you lost touch mybe he did it because he felt it was better for you have you tried finding him on sites like facebook or friends reunited or is there any reletives you can track that might no where he is, because you obviously have stronge feelings and its unlikely to ever ease or go away without finding him or at least trying your best.keep looking as long as you have hope because its no use just settling for a nice bloke wen you still feel this way for him its not fair on you or the possible bloke, you will know wen your ready to date
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