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writes:~Long story short...My ex and I have an intense unexplainabe bond. Our history is bizarre. From point one, we were two bulls in a china cabinet. We've never been intimate. We are familiar with each other...but...wee don't know each other. We have both dumped each other...but...no matter what we always somehow end up back together. Our last breakup, which occured this past July was a disgrace...A god forbidden disgrace with which the both of us crossed lines that are too grotesgue to repeat. My ex recently contacted me and we are back communicating...as friends.I am in love with my ex...but...I do need to learn my ex...and my ex wants to learn me. The problem is my ex recently moved to another state...far away...We only met once when she resided in the same state as I...and that experience in itself resulted in another bizarre..WTF?!How the hell can she and I really learn and enjoy one another the natural way when we are miles apart?WTF?! Star-crossed lovers?I don't know anymore...I'm not seeing anyone right now and have no interest in dating anyone. I am trying to focus on pulling my life back together after becoming so dysfunctional behind our breakup.I've cut off all contact with people who were supporting me with our breakup, because their presence was only making me more dysfunctional...I was even living in pretend land with a close friend who was also going through a painful breakup...and I put a stop to it, as while we thought we were helping one another we were only making one another more dysfunctional...and the most shameful part is I was pretending in my head she was my ex...and we would hold hands, cuddle, spoon, and give pecks on the cheek...and I would pretend it was my ex...yeah absolutely pathetic and the sick part is she knew it and did the same thing to me...like I was her ex. We never engaged in sexual activity or disclosed our personal parts. I only want my ex to take me.I don't know what to do....Maybe I should be a nun.This is abnormal.WTF?! Help!Why did I fall in love?
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reader, QuirkLady +, writes (24 November 2010):
 Enforce a six-month period of no contact and get yourself into therapy. Dysfunctional relationships are the worst and people end up dragging their issues into other relationships, as you did with your friend. Address the problems inside yourself first and try to build a healthier you before you give anything else a try.
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