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*ittersweetmemory
writes:Hey there guys. I have a kind of weird feeling. Please don't judge as i have mo own reasons why i choose this type of love.So first thing is there is this guy i met online in April, and he is form an other country. we started as friends, but soon enough we both fell for each other. It was always hard for him to take the distance but he always loved me so deeply and so truly. I felt so so happy. I've been lonely for so long before i met him and without saying anything he became the perfect guy i ever wanted. He was the first person in the past 3 years to truly makes me smile.. for real. And that was a wonderful feeling. I love him from all my heart and i'll always love him. The thing is he moved to his father's place about a month ago and soon after it he broke up with me saying i hold him back and that he is not wanting to be with me any more cause he wants a fresh start. When he broke up with me i felt devastated and hurt.. i felt like i lost everything and everything that reminded me of him just felt like tearing me even more apart. Not the thing is the way he left me made me have this small amount of hate which helped cope quite well for the first week. And i had an other online guy being here for me (as a friend that time). But a few days ago he said he fell for me and i felt like i had stronger feelings too so i decided upon being together with him. He knew about this first guy. We are a couple now.. and we are having a nice time every time being together but soemtimes i get my old memories.. how it used to be with the first guy, how easily he expressed his feelings.. how much he knew me. I know that relationships are different but this feels like something is missing. And i can't understand why since i care so much for this guy and more than anything i want him to be happy, same wants he for me too. He's an amazing person. caring, sweet and loving. But lately i've been crying over this old guy.. it hurts so much to know i can't talk to him again, I miss him like hell.I feel bad about it since i'm together with this guy and think of my ex and miss him so badly. I don't want to hurt my current online bf.. he means so much to me.. SO i truly want to sort things out..Anyone any advice on what should i do?
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reader, bittersweetmemory +, writes (21 September 2010):
bittersweetmemory is verified as being by the original poster of the question thank you..i try to focus on that
it's just that whenever i think of my ex i get this guilt feeling because i'm with someone else..but i hope i'll stop thinking of him:)
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reader, bittersweetmemory +, writes (21 September 2010):
bittersweetmemory is verified as being by the original poster of the questionso you think it's normal to be with someone yet still think of your ex? cause this guy is so wonderful and i hate myself for thinking of my ex..i just feel it's unfair for him :(
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