My sister is with the man I have loved for 10 years!

A female age 30-35, anonymous writes:

it all started when i was in 7 grade i had this big crush on this guy name adam. we would flirt all the time! oh how he gave me the butterflies! we had very little classes in school together and we never saw each other out of school! but it was ok it was only 7 grade we keep our just flirting friendship until the 9th grade! when we had a little more freedom to see each other and didnt seem like a little crush anymore.. dating him was amazing everyday would be better then the next! He was a lot of my first times! he was my first real boyfriend! and i know it sounds like awwe it was her first love thats how its suppose to be.. but its not like that.. i broke up with him because i was told to by my parents we were getting to close and serious... he was heart broken .. the whole school knew about it was this big giant shock for everyone! i felt awful! but what could i do? so that summer i ended up moving to another town which was only 10mins from the last one but being kids that couldnt drive or talk on the phone that was like a million miles away! so we both started dating other people . one after the other they fell thru.. we would keep in touch when we both got cell phones and our own cars.. we had a good friendship i never stop caring for him and he clearly never stop loving me ither! but my parents would never let us be together and we both knew that so we continued to date other people. in the 11 grade i deciede i would be stupid and have sex for the first time.. stupid me ends up becoming a prego!... i was embarssed stop talking to everyone and was kick out of my house and was forces to move in with my sister from another state. i had the baby.. keep little contact with everyone... gradutation came up for my friends i went back home to see it and while talking to them i hear this voice that just gives me butterflies and the chills i look behind me and there he was adam in the flush! i swear my face turn as red as his robe! my knee gave a little.. we talked for a few and then his parents pulled him away for pictures!.. he ran back and gave me a hug told me he missed me !... i my heart was racing... i drove back home(other state). and i had to return a few weeks later for the bith of my bestfriends baby aka my god son!..i called him .. it was his birthday and i had his number still memorized i thought if they had changed it i wasnt meant to get a hold of him... but he picked up.. my heart drops! i asks him to come to my hotel to talk.. which he did i told him everything.. adam and i could keep very little from each other.. he knew everything already but he let me tell my story anyways. things just felt right so a kiss was given and one thing led to another.. i went back home knowing i had a boyfriend in another state but he wasnt going to be there for long.. he was moving about 2 hours from where i did so he could go to school!.. he would visit all the time it felt like we had a little family it was perfect! school ended for him and he was offered a job in his home town i encourage him to take it was an amazing offer! .. when he moved back home thngs for us started going bad.. ending up with a break up... but we stayed friends... i feel sick and had to move out of my place so my son and i could be taken care of.. i moved in with my sister boyfriends family... for a little i had planned to move back to my home town and surpiseing adam with the move.. but all my plans fell thru.. so i never left...my sister would always give me advice about me and adam all the time! which i thought was very helpful! adam decided that he love me enough to quite his job and move here! with me .. he was very stressed here all the time! so i would call me sister about it and she would tell me what i should do but things just keep getting worst... finally we broke up again! it was heart breaking i cried for weeks! he moved back to his hometown.. it took us awhile to be ok with each other .. about 5 months later i deciede i should try to date... which i did and about this time my sister and her boyfriend werent doing so well they have been together for five years! now and she didnt want to marry him of have a kid with him even tho she already had 2 kids form 2 different guys in short relationships. but whatever.. she and him ended things by her cheating on him by then he had enough...then there was so much drama around the house.. i was involed for awhile but took myself out of it because it was stressing me out to much going back and forth everyone one wanting to know everything from each other using me as the middle man.. i was done... so i deceide to take my sister on a trip with me..to my hometown where i meet up with some of my friens at my hotel room which i paid for. i had driven all that day which makes me very sleepy but i fought thru it.. my friend and i took a tiny trip across the street in her car because i didnt want to drive leaving my son and her daughter and my sister aat the hotel. where my sister met two guys and invited him back to my room! on the way back from our tiny trip my friend runs a read light and gets us hit on my side of the car my leg was messed up! after dealing with all that i call adam to come over! as i walk into my room there are two strange guys in my room! a little werid none of them were cute at all! lol well o well... i took two shots so the pain of my leg would go away(from when we got it) i was getting sleepy .. my sister told me she was going to talk to adam about how much he broke my heart.. i was like cool what an amazing sister i have to let him know all this... adam gets there and my sister leaves me with theses guys all by myself while i was bang up tired and she ditch them soo they would get the hint to leave she didnt like them.. she said they werent worht her time she was better then them i felt bad for them.. i talked to them for about 30mins.. and then told them i was going to bed because of the day i had... they left and i end up falling asleep 3 hours later my sister comes back wakes me up asks me if i want to go swimming! i said no i was soo tired! and i wasnt getting out of bed! so about 5 o clock in the morning i hear this phone go off its not mine... its adam i was like what the heck i look over to my sister bed its empty? so i walk downstairs and look everywhere they are no where in site...? about 30 mins later my sister comes up i asked her where she was she tells me downstairs i told i looked... she then again said she was down there i figure i was soo tired that i just over looked her... i then realize adam wasnt with her.. she goes downstairs to get him i give him his phone and he looks soo mad and wants to cry he didnt say much to me.... he left ... i went home two days later he said he didnt want to talk to me anymore... i was soo confused.. i asked my sister what happen that night she said all they did was talk.. and he said he realize a few things.. and he was just done..i was mad at her.. and him... but i realize its a guy i cant be mad at my sister for anything she didnt do anything...so i take her out to dinner.. and other stuff.. with in a few months i even let her watch my son so that she can get some extra money for the house since her x wasnt there anymorei was paying her over the amount i should have i was paying for two bad kids.. for my one not so bad kid..i had to make another trip to my hometown.. i invite her because i didnt want to go alone..and about this time she has met a few friends... she tells me she wants go out with one of them i thnk nothing of it i help her pick out a sexy outfit! and let her borrow some of my clothes! she is gone until 3 am.. which was great.. the next night she wants to go out again i thought it was amzing! she ends up staying all night and half the day with this guy name michael and we made those funny little joke such as you tired him out didnt you. and she came back out with some funny sayings.. the next night i wanted to go out soo she let me she watch my son for me! :D so i could we she told me i could come back until 2.. because i never get to go out and i always come back sooner because i dont like leaving my son! she i thought that was really cool!..we went home my sister and i had many more outing around our area.. not my hometown i spent lots more money on her and her daughters!.. which was kind of normal!..out of no where adam text me on my birthday tells me happy birthday.. and tells me i cant tell anyone we are talking ... becaue no one need so know what he is doing.. i was thinkoing drugs the way he was talking... he said that i couldnt even say anything to my best friend not even my sister and i tell my sister everything... soo that was a big deal!...i took my sister to the mall .. about a week later told her about everything i was feeling towards adam that i still think things could work out and i even dream about marrying him and having little adam babies!..and then we talked about some other stuff.. she became very irrated...i didnt know what that was about... then about month later i read on my sister facebook about butterflies i was soo happy for her! my sister asked me for money .. she was down to her last bucks...and well paying her over babysitting money made me kind of low with cash...so i gave her a fifty.. so she had 75 to keep her for 2 weeks.. which wasnt much but i bought her food for her house.. and her bills didnt come until next month.. so i figure she would be ok..i am now planning to move back to my home town... my sister wants to come to all of a sudden she said she needs out of this town .. a new fresh start.. i was all for it!.. then one night adam calls me. late at night i was sleeping i dont call him back i thought it might be an oops call... then a few days later my sister calls me .. sounds like she feels lonely... and she like you know what i want to get married.. i was i better be there for the wedding! scratch that i better be in the wedding and she goes and it doenst matter who it is.. and i say as long as its not any of my x and differently if its not adam... she said what thats kind of funny adam has been sending me a few emails only three about how much he likes me... i was in shock i ask her nicely not to go there she said i figure as much i wouldnt do that to you :D a few days goes by i wake up and look at my phone adam called again.. i figured he wanted to yell at him i text him saying soorry that i missed his call and he text backk we need to talk.. i figure he wanted to tell me about the emails..so i let him call.. turns out.. the night of the car hitting me my sister took him outside to tell him i dont love him anymore that i will never love him and he needs to move on and she kisses him... they go out to dinner and talk more she talks about her x and he talks about me she talks more about her x and they end up having sex.. thats y i couldnt find them.. at the hotel .. thats why he looked like he hated me and y he looked like he hated.. michael.. was adam.. i felt stupid and played and felt like she was making fun of me because all the stupid side jokes... the night i went out he came over and saw my son .. left before he woke up because my son would have knew who he was. my sister wanted to move in with me was just a way for her to get her stuff to ohio so she could try to move in with adam.. adam has a big heart can be pulled hard by his heart.. but he should have thought how this would effect me.i not saying he isnt guilty of things but he was really missed lead by my sister.. how could she lie to me so much and do this to me knowing that i still love him? how can she say all those mean and all those lies about me! what am i suppose to do now? i still move him and he told me everything because he still loves me.. he didnt know about all the lies.. expect the ones that were told to me.. how am i suppose to get over this .. how am i suppose to forgive her? i dont think i can she has been bashing me and lying about things i did. i never lied to adam and if i have he knows when i do we just know each other that much. i still love him but i dont think i am suppose to forgive him for this.. it could be my heart thinking unreasonable... by i know my sister adam has money in his family ... it never mattered to me..but it matters to my sister she is just going to use him for that ...i think she is going to use him to get ahead in life.. she is 8 years older then him...she already took him for about 2,000 already.. and she tells him she wants to marry him and have a kid with him and want him to move to arizona which is on the other side of the united states from his hometown.. he tell me he is scared of all of it..i just dont know what to do or where to go from here? do i throw away 10 years of feelings for him? i need help. with adam and my sister what am i suppose to do?

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