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male
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:It'll make almost a year since I've starting dating my girlfriend. Even at this age, she's was my first (even my first kiss). At the start, everything was perfect, she was all over me, maybe too much even, I was kinda scared at first. It wasn't until we had our fist night of sex, that these worries disappeared. During these 5 months, we would see each other everyday, fantasize about the future and have passionate sex at every opportunity, it was probably the happiest time of my life. She always had a problem with sex, it would hurt. Not everytime, but I don't think she ever orgasmed. I've tried everything, even oral, but she says that it hurts her and she doesn't like it. So, ok. Starting some months ago, I noticed she was more distant (or maybe I grew too attached?). Maybe because I had much more work to do at that time, but I sensed something was wrong. On my birthday, she forgot to get me something, not even a letter. Nothing. She says she was looking for a good gift, but didn't find anything. She gave me a letter and something later. I was happy, but I couldn't shake off that feeling. We had sex a day earlier, but on my birthday, she said she wasn't in the mood, first time she did that.Recently, we made a trip together for the holidays, spending 3 days in a row together, the maximum we ever had (previously, she had only slept on my house once, on my birthday). She was kinda sick and slept through the entire trip and we kinda had some fights there. After this, things were not so good, so I wanted to know what was wrong and we had a big "fight". She told me a lot of things, like how I should like myself more and how she didn't know what was happening with her, saying she was confused about us, because of our recent fights, but that maybe it was just her that was really confused and has nothing to do with us (She was against telling me all of this, but I'm curious as hell, and wanted to know what was wrong with us. She said that maybe if she didn't said anything, things would have sorted out by themselves). We decided not to break up and try to renovate our relationship. It's been some days and I can't take my mind off her, at a point I'm actually getting sick because of this. She seems to do just fine, we only talk real late at night, she always enter after midnight, never earlier, even though, we both do nothing the entire day and I'm always online. She says she never had the habit of talking to someone online, but that just makes me think that she doesn't really miss me. We've seen each other some days, she did spend another night with me, but it was kinda bizarre, we were alone all the time, but never did anything much intimate, some touching here and there at some times and that's it. No sex because she said that her doctor advised her to have sex only when she wasn't on her ovulation days, and gave some weird numbers so that in the end, we can only have 13 days of sex in the entire month. I'm thinking this is bullshit and something she's using as an excuse. Later that day, when she got home, she said she didn't know what was happening with her, that she's been in a horrible mood these days and doesn't know why, even apologising about it.Now we've been two entire days apart. I'm dying to see her, but I want to see if she misses me too, so I'm waiting for her to suggest something, mostly because I'm gonna be away for some days later this week and she didn't like it that much, but maybe she's faking it? I dunno. I don't really feel like she's cheating me, I don't want to believe that she would be that much of a hypocrite. I feel clingy and dependable of her, maybe this is bad? Sorry for the lenghty post and explanation, I just want some thoughts on this, not really a clear answer. She means a lot to me, just seeing her getting online fills my heart with joy, but I'm really, really afraid that this just isn't true for her anymore and if that's the case, I don't feel like I'm gonna last on this relationship much longer, but I'm also afraid that the problem is really me and that other woman will react the same way.
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