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writes:i am in love with my cousin's wife. the thing is we all meet on the same day as soon as i saw her is like i went to heaven. now my cousin always been the player type u know get a bunch of different girls they end up liking him and he just splits. now i always been the timid type of guy even when i was in high school my friends had their girls so they just told me just get a girl to fuck.i was not really into it since i always been the type of person that i just want one special girl forever. i never could talk to a girl at first even just being friendly u know. but when i saw this girl i could not resist. and i will tell u this u probably wont believe it but before i told her how i felt i actually heard two voices in my head telling me do not tell her that and i know it was not my consciousness. but u know i still did. but then i realized she liked my cousin n my cousin wanted to fuck with her. so my mind went crazy and dreams with illusions and reality got mixed and my cousin's brother started to talk against me even his mom and worst my mom to. so i left n started to cry liked i was getting tortured. then they hook up and they began to go out ect... then sometimes i saw her i was so nice to her but others i would called her a bitch not cuz she was but cuz i really fell in love with her and i was hurt . like 4years later taught i still had a chance but she said that she was pregnant and i was so hurt that i when into to my room i i wish i could be like God to changed life. i cry for like 5min so hard that i actually past out is been like 9-10 years now but i still feel the same way. and sometimes i feel like shes playing with my feelings cuz she be asking me remember when i met your cousin and in my mind i be thinking what is wrong with this girl of course i do i made a big scene in front of like 10-11 people telling her how much i loved her. and worst my family was telling her that i was laying. but they cant say that cuz i never told any or felt love for any other girl. nor i ever been with a girl i try before to talk with the girls just to have sex so my friends would leave me in peace and if u could see that moment i could not even talk with the girl but with this girl it was so so different is i could tell this girl anything but i realized something throw out the years that if u a pretty boy u could talk bad to u girl cheat on her ect.... and she will still say i love u but if u not good looking and u a lovidoby type u probably would not get the girl u like and am not saying a girl that looks like J-lo but your regular looking girl but to u she looks amazing and i don't want a girl that loves me but i don't love her back. and u know before i read the bible since marriage is until someone dies i dream of seing her in heaven and telling that i still loved her but i read that in heaven no one will get married see i don't really care of we don't have sex or things of that sort but just to hold her hands and to hear her say i love u would make me the happiest person in heaven. that why sometimes i ask God why did i fell love if i cant be with the person i want know i don't want no other girl cuz if i get one i would be thinking about her. i ask God to take my hearth out and give me a mechanical one so i would not feel love. love hurts so much sometimes i wish that God will erase me from existence. what should i do can't kill myself because i will end up in hell and still broken. THX everyone
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reader, anonymous, writes (12 February 2012): Hi there,I really feel for you! I can understand what you are going through because I have also loved someone who didn’t feel the same way. It’s painful, torture and completely self-destructive. There is no doubt in your mind that you love this girl, but there are two things that stop you here. 1) she is married to your cousin and 2) She has not told you she feels the same.At the moment, you need to really live your life as it is too short and you are closing out any other girls that may come into your life. You may not meet anyone else that you feel the same or stronger about. But you won’t know this unless you move on and be open to opportunities. You may have already slipped a couple of girls away because you still have this feeling for this girl. There is a massive difference when you say you are IN LOVE with someone and when you are INFATUATED or obsessed. Love comes with a relationship and being in love with a person. You can love people and care for them, but when it comes to obsession, this can lead to mental torture and uncontrollable emotions. My advice is that you learn to move on with your life. Suicide is NOT an option for anything in this life. Concentrate on your own happiness because people can’t make you happy. Only you can do that. If you don’t do this now, you will end up sad, depressed and alone if you don’t help yourself. Good luck and all the best!
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