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writes:Well, I have something really very stupid and deviant.I have a great crush on my cousin for like 4 years now and I seriously love her a lot. About a month ago, we used to hang out like friends and used to study late nights for our entrance exams. It all happened on one such night. As usual we were studying; I had my pre-boards practical exam the next day. It was probably 3 am when I decided to sleep; my cousin was already sleeping right next to me. I kind of became too possessive of her and had insecurity that she might never be so close to me again, so put my arms around her just like a person hugging his pillow (i did not intend anything wrong ! ). Everything was alright and I was totally intoxicated by the fragrance of her hair. That was probably the best time of my life.But suddenly she kind of pouted and pushed her bottom against my groin probably asking me to stop hugging her and move away. Unfortunately that totally aroused me and I ended up putting my hands in her PJ's. I know that I’m a moron but I seriously never intended to do these things. It was just the spur of the moment and I never wanted to have sex with her or anything. Meanwhile, she was awake but was still pretending to be asleep. Well after this, I realized what I did, so I took her hands and said sorry and “I love you” and cried but she still pretended to be sleeping.Since then she has been ignoring me. I have tried texting her, giving her a card and asked her to talk to me just once but now she hates me so much that she doesn't want to even see my face. I really want her back in my life. I really miss her and miss spending time with her. I have realized my mistake, I promise to never to hurt anyone again. I can’t even study nor do anything because everything reminds me of her. Please I really need help guys.
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 February 2013): I actually think she tried to push you away. She was too scared to scream or say anything. She cried after you touched her so intimately. You betrayed her trust. Let her be as she does not love you and cannot obviously trust you.You need to worry about the fact that if she does tell someone you could be in trouble.My concern was if she was a tease, why did she cry....did she feel violated?
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reader, janniepeg  +, writes (24 February 2013):
 You didn't hurt her. She is equally responsible for this awkwardness. Using her bum to push you off is kind of the worst way to say stop. She is like a cock teaser. She likes that you were aroused but could not bring herself to do something sexual with a family member.
She is ignoring you because she doesn't know how to handle herself around you. You should discuss with your family about alternative living situations. I am sure your family did not think that you two would get sexual and trust that you would be nothing more than roommates.
I think the love is one sided. She does not have the romantic interest like you do. It's not like if you kept your hands to yourself she will return that love for you.
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