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writes:Dear people, I'm angel, currently 23 years old. I was in a relationship for almost 4 years during my engineering graduation. we had a very cute kind of a rapport, we were very good friends to start with as he was my batch mate and then fell in love with time. he is a very intelligent guy and has great other talents as well but because of his bad mixing, he became in-attentive to his studies and started faring bad in exams wherein i was doing pretty well. That's when the rift started between as and he used to indulge in frequent break ups and fights with me. but they all used to get sorted out as we both loved each other a lot and he would always come back to me and so would i. but the things were getting worse. we had a big break-up for about 4 months when we both weren't even talking to one another. he broke up with me because he was too tensed with his career and had family pressure as well. he had been too harsh with me then and i was deeply hurt to have him leave me when i needed him the most. after 4 months he again came back to me and cried saying that he was sorry for what he had told me and done to me and that he couldn't live without me. I accepted him back as i loved him strong and also that his GRE was coming up and i dint want him to waste his time not studying. Things became okay for a a few months but he again tried to leave me when things were not okay in spite of telling me he won't do it again.Finally when we passed out of college, after a month he suddenly stopped taking my calls. that was the time when i was getting admitted to universities for my masters and he was about to join his service in different cities that is. he always wanted to do research but due to some reasons he couldn't apply to universities that year. he was depressed about it true, but he just didn't feel what i was going through. a few days later i came to know that he was thinking of parting ways with me as he told this to his friend. I got very annoyed at this and out of impulse i deleted his email accounts (as i had their passwords known to me)and insulted him on a public forum saying that he was a loser and my parents weren't approving of him as my guy. Then i also messaged him ridiculing his career and looks and told him that he was a good for nothing and a kicked out dog and that he wouldn't ever get a girl and that he was an impotent blah blah all kind of nonsense and abuses which i still regret having said. that was it .I broke up with him like that and he messaged me back saying that he wishes me luck for the future and not to call him again.its been a year and a half that we have parted ways but i still love him and miss him. a few days back he messaged me and asked me how iam and how my studies are like and whether i have a boyfriend now.i have replied but we talked very formally. i think he still loves me too. i still remember that he had done me a portrait of mine and its sooo beautiful :)meanwhile i have had a small fling with a guy. he knows that but he hasn't yet had any such relationship with any girl.i don't know if its true love but if it is i don't want to lose it. we were so much in love. could he have stopped loving me?please suggest as to what i should do....his message has made me restless.... i want to meet him....oh by the way i have apologised to him for those words of mine. should i make any moves or wait for him to do...or move on....please advise....:)
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 September 2010): let him make the first move...then go on from there
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