A
female
age
30-35,
angel of love
writes:My whole life has felt like a speeding bullet. Every time I turn around someone is dictating to me what I should do with my life. If just once I made a real decision for myself I was told that it was the wrong decision and to take it back. After which I was told the right way to do it and that if ever a decision was to be made to talk to someone about it before making one. It was the fact that I was so crowded in my life that lead me to do stupid things. Take for instance when I was sixteen. I was so tired of people making decisions for me. You're too young to know what you want or Learn from our mistakes...was all I ever heard. So one night I got into a car with a girl, who at the time I didn't know was younger than me and didn't have a license, and ended up being chased by the cops and crashing into a tree nearly taking both our lives. Another time would be when I was told not to got a soccer game with my uncle because it was too late and I had work to do at home in the morning. Feeling the crowdedness that I felt that previous time I went any way. In the end I ended up being sexually molested by my own uncle. My point to this story is that I always made bad decisions, sometimes catastrophic ones while I was angry at the world or my family. Sometimes you need to trust the people that love you because sometimes they really are just trying to watch out for your best interest. Taking it from my experience...breaking the rules always lead to something ten times or even a million times worse that if you would have just followed the rules. P.S. One last thing before I end this article. In my life I have come extremely close to being raped on more than one occasion. Those times have turned me into a cynic when it comes to trusting the men in my life and the men that I meet. It has taken me a really long time to realize that there are still some really good and decent men out there. Take my advice and just learn to keep an open mind about the men and women you let into your life. One bad seed or even a dozen bad seeds doesn't mean the whole lot is bad. Trust in people but most importantly trust in yourself. Because once you can truly in the purest definition of the word, love yourself and trust yourself you'll be much happier and you will lead a more productive, more lovable, and more enjoyable life. God Bless you all and remember that each and every one of you deserve the very best the world has to offer. NEVER and I do mean NEVER settle for second best. Go for what will make you happy and go for what you deserve.
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