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writes:Dear Cupid, Socorro!! Please help me!!This is a job for King Soloman, but he was busy, and you aunts at DC are the next best thing. I´m really in a bind, and the only solution I can think of is to just cut myself in half... but that would probably kill me, and I DON´T want to die. I just want to be in two places at once, but that´s impossible.It seems like all my dreams are coming true. My country flag is Mexico, but I´m not Mexican (yet, hopefully eventually), but I live here now. I´m an American and Floridian, teaching in Mexico and there is no place I would rather be. I dreamed of living here when I was small, I went to college here and now I´m teaching here. I´ve always thought Mexican guys were amazing. I have loads of Mexican friends. The last man I loved broke my heart, but I was a different person and he isn´t right for the person I am now. ´Well, I´ve befriended this new young man. It´s way premature to say that I LOVE him or know if I ever will. There´s no denying that I care about him, a lot though (though I´m shy when it comes to my feelings). I don´t know if I´ll ever love anyone like I loved my ex boyfriend, but this new guy makes me smile again. I always feel happy when he invites me somewhere, and blue whenever he waves bye to me. Whenever I go on outings with most other guys, I´m relieved when they leave and I have my own space... but it´s always a letdown when this one goes home. I am a guitarist as well as a teacher and I played the guitar in a band here, and the piano player introduced me to him... he´s also a musician and understands my love for music. He´s asked me if i would ever consider being his girlfriend. i don´t mean to come across as this drama queen who complains about EVERYTHING, but there is one problem.It´s likely that I will be in Asia next year (long story!!). I will DEFINITELY come back to Mexico (hopefully for good!!). Next year, I anticipate that I´ll have to go to Asia. I´m excited about seeing Asia but a year is a long time, and my heart is really in Mexico. I know that next school year seems far away, but it will be here before we know it. why do I have to go to asia? Long story, but it´s inevitable.I haven´t told my friend about this. He´s nice and sweet but I´m afraid that if I commit to him and I´m not sure that i love him, that he´ll get hurt. What if i became his girlfriend and he developed feelings for me? It would hurt him so much for me to leave, and i would feel overcome with guilt. The other possible scenario is that he would find someone else and I would be heartbroken. This is actually what happened with the other guy (my ex who broke my heart). I don´t want to leave Mexico, I want to stay here forever. I´ll be here until early summer, and hopefully when I return I´ll stay here for good.He doesn´t want to immigrate to the USA (there is this idea that everyone wants to live in the USA, but the people that can afford to live in Mexico, really want to stay here), and i really don´t miss the USA (i miss my family and my pets, and a few friends... that´s about it).he asked me again, yesterday, if i wanted to be his girlfriend. I thought about it.I thought about it some more.Then he said, we can leave it up to time to decide what will happen... and i agreed.I would rather hurt myself than hurt this guy... and I´m starting to hate myself; I can really be a selfish pig sometimes. If I leave Mexico (even for a year) I don´t see how I can ever have a chance with him.It´s likely that I´m going to live in another town, but I´m staying in the same country for awhile. I should be overjoyed because I´m here, I´m teaching, and I´ve made friends, but this situation makes me want to cry. Thanks if you can help me.
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reader, anonymous, writes (24 December 2010): ~LOVE IS INDIFFERENT TO DISTANCE~
Sweetie,
I agree with Jonas.
True love is unstoppable. Nothing stands in its way...EXCEPT DOUBT.
Is it that you are denying guilt for a want of 'having you are harboring guilt for hoarding your cake and wanting to eat his too?'...this is the foundation of suspicion?
Whatever decision you make, must be of true comfort to you and respectfully considered in both light of he and you.
God Bless.
~Excuses are tools of the incompetent, and those who work with them over truth are amateur fools~
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