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writes:Have you ever wanted to just shake someone and scream in their ear, "I f***ing love you. Get over yourself already?!"After heartbreak, I met a guy in November of 2009 online. I wasn't even particularly looking to start something new, but there was something about him. I added him as a friend and we just began talking. We later met in person where we found that we had a lot in common, from our interests, to the way that we grew up, he was even fat as a kid. I met his brothers and saw kid pictures of him.With hormones being what they are, we tried to have sex too early, but he stopped me. 'I think we should wait," he said.I said, "You're right. I don't want to have sex with you. I want to make love to you."I had to go away to college in January of 2010 to finish, but we stayed in contact. He wanted to come up and see me, but money issues stopped him from doing so. We spent all of six months merely talking to each other. It was around July when I saw him again. He had got a new apartment and was very excited to have me come over.I know this is going to sound hella corny, but the first time with him, really felt like the way I should have lost my virginity. We made love.afterward, we talked about everything from politics, to movies, and he asked me what color I thought that he should paint his bedroom.I had some issues in myself but I began to fall in love with him. I was so afraid though because I wasn't sure if he felt the same way.One day, I just had the talk with him. He said he knew that I hadfeelings but that he didn't want a relationship.I took it at facevalue and said I needed space. He was upset...I wrote him a letter explaining myself and took the time to work on myself and I finally resolved a lot of things in my emotional past (i.e. exes and my father)He then got in contact with me and it was like old times. However, it's been so roundabout and not so straightforaward...It's like something happened and neither one of us will say it...I just have no idea what he wants. Actually, that's a lie, I do KNOW what he wants. I'm just sick of the round around on both sides. I'm trying to be patient but...I'm getting older and a lot of my peers are entering steady relationships, marriages, and having children. I'm not saying that I want all those things right but I at least would like to make a foundation of such, if that makes sense...Speaking of make sense, guys what's going on here?
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reader, Kyle007 +, writes (20 August 2011):
Don't be so patient. Let him know what you want. Ask questions. Communicate. Tell him what a shame it would be to miss out on all the love that you could have with each other.
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