Its been years but I still think of my ex

A female age 36-40, anonymous writes:

I met my first lover when i was 19 at my first job. I approached him and sparked up a conversation to get his attention and then walked away. he then approached me later and we talked about random stuff; then the conversation moved to me coming w him for some alone time. long story short, we slept together. I told him i was a virgin, he was a little shocked, but i didn't care, all i really wanted was a memorable night. I kind of ignored him. he tried to call but i got nasty w him and i didn't see him for almost a year i think. when we did met his first statement was that he thought i lied to him about my age, but i didn't and that i wasn't a virgin (but i was). then we hung out afterwards, and it was then that i found out that he was on drugs, badly...I still hung out w him and occasionally had sex w him, whenever and wherever (i seemed to want it more badly than him). i don't know why, but I fell in love him him and the only thing we did was have sex, go out, or watch him do drugs. during that time he would occasionally ramble on about things he did, like sleep w his mother's best friend, cut himself, when he first did drugs, sleeping w his best friends girlfriend, that his close family member had an affair, how much $ he had, or that we could live together, etc. None of all the stuff he said sounded true, i didn't want to hear it. he stayed for like a week or two i think. then all of a sudden he decided he wanted to go back home immediately. I was sad, i asked him to stay while we were having sex, but he didn't. i tried to call him but he told me to move on. Afterwards i found out he went back to jail. i called again and a woman pick-up again, pissed. finally i gave up and haven' t talked to him in years. my only problems is i can't stop thinking of him. i think of him all day even in my dreams. i don't want to be in a relationship w him im happy where im at. i wish i could stop thinking about him, please help me?

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A male reader, MC1911  +, writes (10 March 2011):

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