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writes: She is a teacher, my french teacher. I stare at her whenever I get the opportunity. She's got gorgeous blonde hair, it goes down to her shoulders. I think about her; like every minute of the day. I'm infatuated. I don't want to have sex with her. I don't want to see her, you know, naked. I just love her. I want to get to know her. Know everything about her, her whole life. Her husband, family, siblings. Everything. I want pictures of her. I think I'm looking for another motherly figure, but I just don't know. All I know is that I want to know her, I want to know why? This has gotten me into so much trouble: Excluded for 23 days - don't ask, you don't even want to know! I've emailed her, and pretended it was accidental - it was the school email. She screams and shouts at me, makes me feel like crying, she's really hurtful towards my friends, and me, a lot of the time, at the moment she's nice because I'm one of three girls in my class on Higher French. What does she think, does she really know how I feel? I can't keep eye contact with her beautiful green eyes, I feel nervous, embarrassed and ugly. I don't know if this makes much difference but I'm not really a lesbian or bi-sexual, I've had an embarrassing experience with my neighbor, a girl, we were like 7 years old (and i still can't forget it). She came round my house to "play". I don't remember how it all came about, she asked me some stuff about sex- and what I knew of this absurd adult behaviour. I'm guessing that I was confused, like "whats that?", I just remember her saying "Don't tell your mum".. And, "Go to the loo first".. So I did that. I listened to her. Then she helped me with my shirt off and leapt onto me. She forced me to.. Lick her..Basically, would that make me more inclined towards women? - I've never been that intimate with guys... But I fancy... Obviously.All help would really really be appreciated!
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reader, anonymous, writes (30 September 2009): I felt felt the same about my gcse music teacher, i did'nt want to have sex with her or have sexual thoughts about her, i just felt so drawn to her every day i went to school i just wantedto see her. felt kind of weird, i liked to chat to her and spend time with her, i'm now married with 3 children i left school in the year 2000 so was a while ago now, i remember 2 years ago i worked for npower like as in house to house sales, one day i knocked on this door and she opened it was like omg lol. but yah i no how u feel i think when we r young we all look up to someone maybe thats it when i was at school i focused all on my music she was the reason i took gcse music. i used to be teased by my class mates cus they said i was inlove with her, but i like a 100% straight :) just liked her so much as a person, just back then i wa so very confused about my feelings for her.
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reader, Rocker94  +, writes (7 August 2009):
i know EXACTLY what your going through .ive been the same as you for 2 years now and im coming to my final year of school and dreading leaving eventually , i feel when i leave i dont know how i'll cope becos i cant even remember ever not feeling infautated with a female teacher and now im starting to get a thing for 2 teachers which is a nitemare. Im pretty sure im straight aswell . and i dont see them in a sexual way , i wish theyd be a diagnosis for how i feel and by the stuff ive read on the internet, how many ppl feel cos itd be easier to get over them but i cant anyway ive tried and tried and lifes just better when im talking to her . atleast you know your not alone, which was comforting to me as i havent told anyone how i feel not even my best friend. its too embaressing. How are you getting on anyway ? id love to talk to someone in the same position as me .x
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reader, anonymous, writes (7 August 2009): Im in EXACTLEY the same posision as you although i have 1 more year left of school and am ABSOLOUTLEY dreading leaving school and leaving that teacher ( who is also female ) but no i dont think im lez or bi , ive felt the same way for this teacher for nearly 2 years soon and now am feeling like this with another teacher and again unfortunatley a female , id love for
there to be a real diagnosis for what we feel cos theres lots of ppl in this sitch, although none of my friends that i know of becos i dont discuss this with ANYONE so its good 2 be able
to talk openly on the net anomonously , but i wouldnt say anything more to her as this will cause embarresment and uel probs see her out n about when shes not at school anyway like in a shop or something .. its time to get over it but i just carnt so i dont expect u 2 anytime soon , i wish there was ppl whod reply and had got over it and cud reassure me and many others . how you getting on anyway ? x
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reader, Rosygirls92  +, writes (26 April 2009):
Well maybe try your hardest to get over her. Objectively, this relationship isn't going far not is there any chance of it.
I'm sure you'll find someone just as amazing if not nicer later on
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reader, previasc96  +, writes (26 April 2009):
Talk to her after class or after school hours. Just ask her about her life... college she went to... parents.... where she was born... stuff like that.
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