A
male
age
41-50,
anonymous
writes:A few years ago i was told by doctors that i was an Alcoholic. I recieved treatment and for a period of a year i never drank at all. I did start drinking again but only at social events and nothing to heavy. Last october i completely fell of the wagon and have been drinking heavily every single day. In which time i have hid this from everyone around me. Parents, girlfriend, work partners, etc. Today is the first day i haven't drank in six months. The last few day i have experienced severe pains in my liver area which i've never had before and scared me. I've taken a few days off work and now i'm at home. I don't feel the urge to drink but i'm scared what will happen when that urge comes back. My joints in my body are completely sore and i've lost alot off weight. I feel alone right now like i'm trapped. I don't know what the correct steps to beat this alcohol addition. I can't live my life as a hermit. I'm ashamed to admit to people that i have a problem. A problem that is taking over my life. I don't know what tomorrow will bring for me. Will i be able to resist the urge not to drink. Will i be able to go through another day without drinking. I just don't know. I'm trying to go through my steps to recovery which i learned before. I feel weak, alone and ashamed that i've allowed this problem to get so out off control. Today was the first day in six months that i was able to think straight. Enjoy the sun and look at the flowers in my garden without being drunk. It felt amazing like chains were not around me. I felt free because today i was strong enough to stand up and say no to alcohol. But tonight as i go to sleep i will be scared because i just don't know what tomorrow will bring to be and will i find it hard to stay so positive.
View related questions:
alcoholic, drunk, flowers, period, trapped Reply to this Question
Share |
Fancy yourself as an agony aunt? Add your answer to this question! A
reader, anonymous, writes (26 March 2009): The key to staying sober is to get a sponsor. If you haven't done it before, go to the nearest, soonest AA meeting and tell them you're new and don't have a sponsor. You'll get one immediately. It might not be the right one, but you'll be handed off to the right one soon enough. Like the other's have said, you've done Step One -- you've admitted there's a problem. A good sponsor will help you through the next steps.
A
reader, anonymous, writes (26 March 2009): You have accomplished the The first step of A.A.
"We admitted we were powerless over alcohol,and our lives had become unmanageable."
Find an A.A. meeting in your area. (They are all over the world) It will be a little scary walking in the door, but once you are there, you will know you are right where you are supposed to be! The room will be filled with people just like you...some young, some old, but all with the same common goal...to stay sober for one day at a time.
It is overwhelming, to fight the desease of addiction, for any length of time. Every morning when you open your eyes, tell yourself "I will not drink today!" Hang on to that determination throughout the day. You will then put one day, and another, and another (and so on) together and have weeks of sobriety, then months, then years! It is difficult to fight this fight alone, however, and thats where the support of others comes into play. You will meet people who will tell you the slippery situations to avoid. Your story has been told and heard for over and over in meetings since the 1930's! No one will judge you. The people there are your peers and they want you to succeed as much as they want to succeed themselves!
If the pain persists, you need to see a doctor! You may have done some damage already, but may be reversable. I wouldn't let it go though.
I hope I have helped in some way...and A.A. will help so much more! Remember...Just For Today!
I wish you luck and hope you will give the program a shot! It Works!
Britt
...............................
A
female
reader, anonymous, writes (26 March 2009): Hi
I am so proud of you.. even though i don't know you...WELL DONE! every day is a day of REBIRTH. We never know what tommorow brings, but we know it's fighting. Please don't let FEAR robb you of tommorow....fear is illusion and will try it's best to fool you...you already know this. Try not to think of tommorow or the next day be in the moment...like you were in the garden.
You tasted reality today...HOLD ON TO THE VISION!
Never feel ashamed be proud that you are standing up and fighting to save your life. Because in your life when you WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! you can save many more by HOPE! others will believe it is possible to LIVE AGAIN and you can be living proof for those that don't know where to turn.
I only have experience of the other side of the coin...my father and x partner...and to watch an illness destroy who you love also destroys those around.
I send hope to you and those who love you....Time Now you LOVE YOURSELF and KNOW that you have a life to live....
Sleep well and let tommorow come to you...another day walking away from the shadows..never look back.
via con dios. x
...............................
A
reader, anonymous, writes (25 March 2009): but you have done it? the firs day without a drink. When you get the urge - which you will. You will fight it and fight hard because you know how it ends. you have a better life to lead than out of a bottle....
live.
write yourself a letter from the future - your future you writing to the now you to tell you how it turned out when you stayed sober. Think of all you end up with.
Star.x.
...............................
|
