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writes: I find it really difficult to trust any male nowadays. I've had no father all my life because he date- raped beat my mother (which is how I came about). Molested by the age of 7. Raped at 18. And had a lying, cheating, disrespectful boyfriend ,(now my ex) who left me and my daughter to cope on our own. I'm not sure I'll ever trust another male ever again. Is it so bad to be alone for the rest of your life? Is there any point trusting males when they all seem exactly the same? I have no friends either because they all screwed me over one way or another. I can't talk to anyone. I fear that the way I think about the world and especially males as a species is going to rub off onto my daughter, I'm kinda glad in a way if it protects her but it seems unhealthy for her not to develope her own opinion. I'm sick of feeling so afraid of everything. I attempted suicide 4 times years ago and couldn't even get that right!! I'm pretty sure I wouldn't do it now that i have a child, but I just wonder if it's possible to live on your own for the rest of your life and still be happy or at least content!?!
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reader, kellyO  +, writes (19 February 2006):
 Hi dearie, i think u are incredibly strong woman.your posting really moved me.
I know u have been let down by males all your life, but believe me there are still some genuine good ones out there. it is true though that one do not really need a male to make one happy but certainly u need friends for support.
You can try going for counselling to be able to express yourself , this really helps.
Towards the end of your postings u indicated that u couldnt even get suicide right cos u tried it four times but i can assure u that means u have an angel watching over u.dont give up hope.
You now have a child to take care of and i am pretty sure u will make a good mother. u arent alone and never will be.
Take care now and i sincerely wish u the best.
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reader, Rebecca Batchelor +, writes (19 February 2006):
 You have had such a rotten time and my heart goes out to you. I certainly understand why you feel the way you do about basically giving up and not believing in people, especially men. Life seems to be particularly cruel to some people.
I wonder if you have received expert help at all as I think this would be essential. It would allow you the opportunity to express how you feel and come to terms with all that's happened. I think you need to develop more confidence in order to not only face life but believe in yourself and not allow others to take advantage of you. The way to do this is to get out there more and attempt to change your beliefs in human kind. Join groups, pursue new hobbies, try anything despite how you feel.
You strike me as an incredibly strong young woman so I reckon you could do this; see it as a challenge to prove to yourself that not everyone is the same. If you really thought that all people were nasty creatures, I don't think you would have posted your letter on this site. Honestly, there are some worthy beings out there, even men, I can assure you. You need to find them.
You are right about your daughter building her own opinion, which she will but you don't have to do all this on your own. Ask for more support from an expert, have the courage to go out and meet some new people. You can talk to someone because you are talking here right now which shows you are capable and perfectly able to express how you feel.
Take this a stage further now and do a bit more. It is possible to be on your own and be content but it depends on the type of person you are. Some love their own company, others don't. In the sense of being on your own because others have treated you like s**t, then no, I don't think you would be happy because you would have lost faith in human nature and unless you come to terms with this, it would be extremely hard to move on.
You can come to terms with all that's happened to you, though and even trust someone again. Everyone is unique.
See someone professional to help you through your beliefs and go out there and meet some new people.
Good luck.
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