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*ukesh Sharma865
writes:Well... it started when I was in 11th Standard. I had a few friends but because of some differences between us, I had to leave them. I had lost faith in friends. Somewhere I heard that your family persons are your best friends.I looked for some attention from my family but found that their doors of love were locked. I tried to open them but didn’t get any reply. But I felt some responses from my cousin's sister. She is 7 to 8 years younger than me and I am 23 and a half now. That time she must be 9 years of age. I felt good as we got emotionally closed to one another.Time passed and the list of my friends kept decreasing as of now I just have two friends with whom I can share my happiness only. I don’t share my emotional problems because when I tell them something, they listen to me very sincerely but later they make a fun of all that which really hurt. I have a real sister as well but because of some differences we fought indirectly and now I don’t feel anything for her apart from that she has got married. Else I don’t like to share something with her as she has very dominating nature what I really don’t like.Anyways, the relationship between me any my cousin kept getting stronger. Sometimes she stayed at our home at night and always slept with me but we never talked emotionally. But the time, I spent with her, always removed all my worries and tensions. She was a corner for me where I could feel that somebody was always there for me which comforted me. I was confident of having someone with me always.Two years before, she was at our home. My dad and mom were gonna sleep in the other room and I was in another. My mom asked her to sleep wherever she wanted. But immediately my dad protested shouting “No…. she would sleep in our room”. I responded sincerely if what was wrong with her to sleep with me. But my dad shouted again repeating the same thing. I was shocked and confused while I knew what they meant of that. But, that really hurt me a lot that they suspected on me for what I can never think even.The incident made an immediate impact on our relationship although we (I and my sis) didn’t discuss it. Earlier she used to visit me on every weekend, but, that changed and a gap started creating between her visit to me. She visited me just once or twice in a month and I started missing her badly. Meanwhile my college period ended and I started working.Everything was going very badly. In fact, sometimes, she didn’t even visit me once in a moth. Before 7 months I stopped talking her and even didn’t visit her at her home. A day when I was in office she called me up and started crying that she was missing me a lot. She complained about that I was not talking to her. Same day I met her and shared her feeling. That was such a great time when we met. But something happened again and I stopped talking to her as she had broken her promise, she made to me. She tried to meet me many times but I always ignored her. Finally she had a chance to catch me alone. She confessed her mistake and started crying like anything. I hugged her kissed her on her forehead and wiped her tears. She made me promise that I will never be annoyed with her ever.There was a festival before two or three months ago. She promised me to visit me but she didn’t come even I called her and she denied. Later I asked her the reason why she didn’t come that night. After forcing a lot she got silent and immediately burst into tears. She told that her dad had prohibited her to visit me ever at my home. I was shocked and confused.Actually, my parents especially my dad always make some worse comments what proves that he doesn’t like when I meet her. He always gives me a work when I with her and if ask for some time, he shouts like anything. I don’t know why he behaves so rude. Earlier she, when she was at my home, used to kept her head on my laps and I caressed her like a father, we always slept with one another whenever she was here. But now the situation has become more worse that when she is sleeping on my laps or holding my hand she immediately gets aside when we hear of someone coming. Now we are afraid of hugging one another before our parents. I am even afraid of holding her hand before them. Situation is getting worse day by day.Last time on 31st Dec we were at my older sister’s home who has got married. My cousin sis slept with me we shared a lot. I told her that how much I missed her when she was not around and how bad I felt when she had broken her promise. She burst into tears and we hugged. By 3 O’clock at night we kept talking and I felt quite relaxed.Almost a month has passed, but since then she hasn’t come to meet me. She calls me but only for she has a work from me and I sometimes get frustrated and don’t pick her call.I know that the situation will never be better from my parent’s side as they will never understand that she is the only person with whom I feel free to share my feelings. My home always makes me feel like being in my office as they behave like they are my boss not parents. She has also become very casual about the relationship as she doesn’t meet me for even a month or more until and unless I go to visit her even our home are just on walking distance not more than 200 meter.I want to forget her but she doesn’t even let me forget her as she becomes too emotional to meet me sometimes and doesn’t want to loose me at any cost. I even know that this is such an impossible deal for me that I know that there is no person except her who can hug me so tight to make me feel that somebody is always there for me. I miss her badly all the time especially on weekends when I just keep watching at the door of my house that she may come. Whenever someone knocks at the door I immediately go to find her but there is someone else always.I have told her many times that I miss her. I agree that she loves me a lot. But she doesn’t meet me even for a moth. I don’t know how to deal with this situation as now it is on its peak and getting more worse day by day.Please help me to get out of the situation.
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reader, Mukesh Sharma865 +, writes (8 February 2011):
Mukesh Sharma865 is verified as being by the original poster of the question Dear Cupid......Please help me to overcome the situation as I am still looking for your suggestions to my question.
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reader, Dear Bernie  +, writes (7 February 2011):
 sweetie, you need to go cold turkey from your family and cousin, go out there and meet people. Have you thought of finding another job outside your parent business, it seems like your life is been controlled by everyone. there is life out there, if only you get up and go!
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