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female
age
41-50,
anonymous
writes:Dear aunts and uncles... Where do I begin. Well I'm feeling like I've fucked up my life yet again and I just want to know if I have a future. I'll try keep it short. Left school 15 (family probs) left home 17, dossed around for years, 21 started beauty course was bad at it. Ended up enrolling at college and sat 4 a levels in a year. 22 went to uni, got a drama and English degree. Got job in pr, then left and went travelling round Asia and Australia. Around this time met married toxic man he told me to become a teacher (drama) always wanted to be an actress but never actually tried and couldn't afford to take year out and do the audition circuit, besides I realise not that great haha! Did some modelling though, as was luckily blessed in the looks department. Anyway so I applied to be teacher as everyone said I'd be good. Anyway think it was to impress married man as believed all his bullshit. Couldn't get onto course anywhere! Got another pr job when I came back from travels and moved to stunning flat with best friend. Loved pr, was great it but company worked for was bad and aged 29 after 3 years there I was still on 22k no pay raise despite fact I worked hard and made the company lots money. I got rid of married man as saw the light and met lovely guy who met through work, but we didn't have chemistry and wasn't quite right! Anyway in September just gone I was offered a place 250 miles from London to study as secondary teacher and took it. Me and the man finished. And incidentally in space of 6 months his getting married and built his own company. However I'm now confused. I'm not really happy teaching and it's hard work and I miss pr. I'm not happy where I am living and miss London. I am moving back in 6 weeks as I'm due to do second half of course there, but I'm 30 next month and feel got nothing. I will have nowhere to live when back and will be sleeping on friends floor. Till I can find roomshare. Although feel at 30 I'm too old to get room still! But I'm broke no money! I'm going to keep looking for pr but will try stay on course as least doing something and maybe I'll start enjoying it. I just feel I'm getting on and got nothing, least before had job and nice flat. Now no money coming in, nowhere to live etc. All my friends married or settled or in great careers. I've got nothing! I'm pretty, funny ( I hope) and have a brain, but I feel like I'm never going to meet anyone or have job where earn or my own place. Sometimes I feel like what's point in it all as I don't get anywhere Xxx
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reader, petina1 +, writes (7 January 2011):
 You sound like you are a 'traveller' with all the moving you do. On your next move try to stay there and make a life and be settled. Looks like a lot of your choices have been made with a man in tow. Make your own choices now and stick to them. Eventually with your qualifications etc you will be able to generate a good income and have a good life. A nice man will hopefully follow that once you've established yourself. What i'm saying is put your self first for a change.
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