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*alshie93
writes:Short and sweet, I met a girl around a year and four months ago, a hell of a long time.Long story short, I was most definitely in love with her, never felt the same for anyone else since and never felt happier when I was around her or speaking to her.The problem was we fell apart due to around 2 hours distance from each other on the train, sounds stupid, but that's how it was.In the end I tried to stop losing her, wrote her a letter and the usual, didn't give up until about March 2010 last year.I never heard anything from her until I rang her in June 2010 and she unexpectedly picked up. I talked to her, but she took the piss in the conversation, and it lasted about three minutes sadly.In August 2010, I began to really miss her randomly, even though I'd just entered a relationship and wrote to her again, asking how she was and if we could be friends but didn't get any reply.So that was that, when the anniversary of when her and I met came round, I was just coming out of a relationship and I didn't realise the importance of the date in December.I've been fine up until a last week where I have been having constant dreams of her, dreams of me and her talking again and talking about everything that happened, how she felt when she got the letters and how she did feel whenever me and her were on talking terms.The dreams in question go a little to the tune of;The two letters and why she didn’t reply, she said maybe she was replying but couldn’t write what she wanted to and couldn't in the end because it was too awkward for her.She said that I became stalkerish but I said I only was like that because I loved herShe responded to that saying she knew and said that she loved me then as well, then murmured she still does.We stayed with each other all night, kissed and held each other, I think this was because I didn't want to let her go again.She mentioned university and what ones she was going toAnd finally she asked If I ever went to Southport, her home town, to see her.When I woke up, I thought about the dream, went back to sleep, and had the same dream again, but altered to become even more realistic, something more along the lines of her and I began to talk again and be friends, but nothing more really.Now I know that may all sound stupid to you, but this girl and the memory of her and all the regret I had of losing her always resurfaces, maybe when I'm feeling down about a girl or just coming out a relationship break up or whatever.But never have I had recurrent dreams about her and I find this weird considering its nearly a year and a half since I have had any contact with her.If anyone could help me with their opinion on this? It's really bothering me, I do miss her so much and still have feelings for her, but I don't think about her everyday. I know If I tried to get in contact with her again, I wouldn't get anywhere, but is it worth a try again, if not, how can I get rid of the feelings I have started to have again?
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reader, Abella  +, writes (22 January 2012):
 Hi walshie93
I really hope that you did manage to reconnect with her. A lot can happen in a year.
Sorry you did not get an answer then. Is there anything else that you need or any support that might help after all this time?
regards
Abella
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