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female
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36-40,
*rincessjasmine
writes:I was the one who had a question about my sexuality and had a bf i loved...a lot of u said i love him and that im just over analyzing everything...well i got to see him this weekend and he made me orgasm:) woo hoo and i couldnt stop holding on to him, i just loved it...i get all girly and i like that too...and feel protected..but at times I would think do i really like this? because .. my mind is playing games with me (i clearly and naturally like it) but Im just being weird...also, i think..well a guy isn't as appealing as a female...girls are more nurturing and caring...but he was so caring too...i love being with him and talking to him and everything about him...I just am questioning too much. Another thing is, every girl i see now (cause of this gay hotline who said that I am forcing myself not to see the emotional side of a girl) now im seeing it, and noticing the sweetness and caringness a girl has...and even with CARTOON FEMALES lol..im like how caring/sweet and how attractive...or if i talk to a girl im like...shes so girly and cute....or let me stop seeing her as attractive and just see her as a friend (which thats ALLLL i want from her or any other girl) but im still thinking of girls in that "other way" as a guy would (prob) because Im forcing myself to think that way..when i didnt think of it...it would go away but if i think of it im feeling "attracted" or intrigued...but i dont wanna leave my bf and love him and want him only...although his brother is hot and damn i kinda wish I got with him lol...which is another issue...ahh...i feel so unfaithful..he was here with me and i was thinkin of others...not really thinkking of anyone in particular just in general any girl who talkd to me or on tv i'd be like oh shes so feminine and it's nice...so how do i make myself stop thinking like this and just go back to my ways (without stressing) im trying to just "accept it" but what that really means or how to do that....im trying to "not think" but then i think...am i in denial?
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reader, anonymous, writes (5 May 2008): I think you might need to talk with a therapist. I think your past may need to be reviewed. It really sounds like you have a real need to be pampered and are confused as to who best can provide it. When we are depressed and an emotional wreck, our thoughts and feeling will run wild and we will look at all alternatives in life to fulfill them. Questioning one's sexuality is not uncommon, but it is more likely caused by the grief your experiencing. When your at this stage, you need to take a break and learn to relax; calm down, to much thinking can be harmful mentally and physically, and you don't want to end up being insane. So relax, and find activities that can balance your struggle.
This boyfriend might be perfect for you, but under the circumstances, you can ruin it for both of you.
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