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writes:so depressed so given up like a hopeless case i could barely write all of this even though i realize that asking this question online to bunch of people who know me at all is all in all one another dumb thing to do but frankly speaking guys lol i have faced and experienced so much embarrassment up till now that i can really laugh at myself for the rest of myself keeping rest aside the other ppl who laugh at me for who i am. i just think that i am useless and dumb never got good grades always failedi have no special talent that i can say hey i am Just best in this thingi dont look goodi dont think i have a good personalityi know i know what a sad f**k right? i laugh at myself what elsewhat a loser i mean i know it i heard it all i faced it all and i am coward .i get panicky and screw things for myselfi mean the thing i can do well i screw them too so F**ked upwhat a waste of life? all i know is i am totally confused clueless of whats happenin around me and all the ppl i see everyday seems to be strange to me. i dont even know if i have any friends or the one who are are they actually my friends. i have absolutely no idea about anything. i see everyone in my class better than and then i feel like whats the use of trying ? most of them get along very well and form groups and i feel left alone everytime and noone willing to come to me and talk. when i already know i am a failure and then the world i for only the stronger ones and weak wont survive. i dont know where to start or just what is with me everything is everytime messed.God exists?
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reader, anonymous, writes (12 September 2009): Hello there! I'm no expert but I secretly suffer with depression. Sometimes I am up (in spirit) and other times I am really really down. When I am down I feel exactly the way you do, no exceptions. One thing that I've noticed is that when I am happy and talkative, people come to me and ask me questions etc. When I'm down everyone can sense it (although I'd like to think they can't) and they avoid me because they can sense that I want to be avoided. I don't think that people avoid me at times because they don't like me but they avoid me when they think that I need my space. Try just for one day going into a barber shop and the first person that you make eye contact with... smile and say hey! People love to talk about themselves so start asking the person questions and watch how they open up.Stop frowning at me! LOL! JUST TRY IT! I would also like to tell you about my long time friend from High School. She has always been a very big girl, no one ever called her pretty and she wore big huge glasses. Still, she was always kind of a big mouth and always on the edge. She didn't have a crowd of friends bc she was pretty,skinny,or talented. People loved her bc she didn't give a darn about what anyone thought or said about her. As long as she was having fun she was alright. 15 yrs later and we don't speak much but I know she's still bleaching her hair and spiking it out and she very dark skinned. She just doesn't care cause she loves it(period).Do things you've never done before and see if you like it. hiking,biking,book clubs,science clubs ,math clubs, join an aggressive charity and fight for a cause, swimming,bowling,cooking or whatever.It's not about fitting in! It's ALL about being you! I hope this helps! Build self confidence for you! not for others! Love who you are! Love you! Love life! Good luck!
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reader, Crazy-Candice  +, writes (26 August 2009):
 Well I'll tell you one thing you sound clever. You're questioning society and that's impressive. So what if people form their stupid cliquey groups - they amount to nothing anyway, all the popular people are just shallow inside and hollow between their ears. You don't sound suicidal in a manic way which is good. I used to feel similar to you when I was going through an introverted phase where I didnt want to leave the house.
Trust me aswell, friendship and association is really a 2 way thing if youre not interested then they won't be eitherrr.
If you come across as standoffish or antisocial then people are quick to not be bothered to be nice.
Religion really is a huge subject and I know I questioned religion and philosophy for years and spent all my time writing stuff down but in the end it all meant nothing!
Life in my opinion is not about finding yourself but creating yourself. If you feel like being social and friendly then thats the person you can mould yourself to be.
What's your passion in life? I know youre clever so maybe its something computer-oriented or educational.
If you find people with similar interests then they wont be shallow like those other people.
To be honest life is hard. its not simple ever. and its not easy for anyone.
Just do what you enjoy and remember that lifes too short to wallow. Relax and focus on picking up things in your life to create a zone where you feel like you have things that you like. Sounds cheesy but
what are your main hobbies, fave passtimes, what is your passion?
build on that. Just be more open to new experiences and create your future with this. Dont let life pass you by. its never easy as I keep saying. everyone has problems! eek!
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