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anonymous
writes:I recently was on here and asked about my friend who took his own life and his sister brought me out of my seclusion. last couple of days have been different. im not sure how to deal with all this. the morning I went back home to see her. when I got there her mom was there. as soon as I walked in she hugged me and started crying histerically. we sat down on my couch and she told me he left a stack of letters. this entire time I havnt said a word. she went on to say he left me a letter specifically addressed to me. she put it down on the table stood up hugged me and left. my girlfriend kissed me and went back into the room. I couldn't bring myself to read it. about 4 oclock this morning my girl comes out and sits in my lap, she started talkin to me. she said "you know he loved us a lot, but you where more than a friend to him. you were family to him. don't get mad but he told me all the trouble you guys got into, he told me about your ex. my mom said he left a message for me telling me that I needed to be here for you when you need me even tho you'll never admit it." she continued to just rest on me until she fell asleep. I couldn't bring myself to say anything or do anything. I just watched the letter on the table. I just kept thinkin over and over again why, why did this have to happen? what does he want to say to me? I don't know what time it was but it was light out and I picked it up and read it. it read "(my name) you where always there for me. I remember each time you saved my ass one way or another. that unfortunately left you with scars both emotional and physical (he got into a fight that resulted in a knife bein pulled and I got in front of him and was stabbed) you where my brother. I could always trust in you... please take care of my sister." its longer but mostly remembering the old days and I can't really bring myself to repeat it. somewhere during this my girl wakes up and reads with me. after she kissed me and went into her room. so many thoughts where goin thru my head and I spent the day sitting there thinking. I feel dead inside. I don't know what to do. I can't stop thinkin I need to be there for her. what do I do? I know she's hurting and I just wish that me and him switched places. im scared, for the first time that I can remember im scared. please someone give me advice to help her. I don't know how to go about it. help Reply to this Question
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