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female
age
30-35,
*pplemac
writes:heyyA year ago I was cheated on and seven months ago I never saw a train wreck coming [where I basically thought I was in a perfectly normal relationship, only for him to turn around and say it's not right and was gone before I could make sense of things]. Any way so now!! Now I have been talking to this guy, after seven ugly months. Known him for a year or two only to get talking now. He's lovely, cares as far as expectations can go, in regards to how well we know each other etc. The problem is that I don't feel so excited and don't beam when he says he misses me or some thing sweet which he wouldn't say to someone else. Before I used to feel ecstatic and now I can't even muster the feelings if Ii wanted to. It's like something has changed from inside me which I can't change, even if I tell myself to. So many disappointments have lead to me feeling some what heartless and emotionless. Don't get me wrong, I do have feelings for this guy, but you know that constant smiling feeling which comes from inside isn't there, though I want it to be there. I don't even know if this is a question, I guess I'm unconciously being so careful now because of decisions I made when things went wrong previously. It's really frustrating and horrible, somewhat like the 'dont make him pay for the last ones mistakes' I guess. Some words of wisdom would be welcome here and now :) thanks x Reply to this Question
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