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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:I've always wanted to have a father ever since I was little. Someone who would teach me how to throw a baseball, have a father/daughter dance with, beat up the first guy who breaks my heart, and someone who would give me away at my future wedding. I'm always jealous when I see other girls and their overprotective fathers. I'd give anything to have that.Is my biological father dead? Unfortunately no. The sucker is still, by some sorry twist of fate, still alive and trying to contact me. Throughout my life this man has encouraged to lots of stuff. Give up my dreams of being a writer, give up friends because they won't remember my name 20 years from now, give up my boyfriend because all he wants is sex, --I kid you not--with 16 pills in my hand, he told me how worthless my life would end up being one day. It still boggles me that at one point, I truly thought there was good in this guy.He's responsible for three attempted suicides by the hand of his first daughter (my older sister), one by his second wife (my mother), and one from me. And because I wanted to have a dad, I had once been blinded by this. But he never worried about any us. He was always going on about the negatives, and could never just be happy. He's not only verablly abusive, but physically as well.It's been six months since the last time I talked to him, or rather fought with him, and he's claimed that he wanted another chance. If this had been two years ago, I would have jumped at the chance, but he sings this song a lot and I'm not sure I can handle getting my hopes up. But I want a father more than anything in the world, one that loves me back. And that man is the closest thing I will ever have to that, and I want so much to believe he loves me enough to change. So, should I let him back in my life? Maybe he's changed this time. Or do I keep ignoring him?To any fathers reading this: Any chance you get, let your family know that you love them. Keep your relationship intact no matter what. Thank you for taking the time to read this?
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 September 2009): Kiddo, I can understand how much you want a father. But sometimes it isn't meant to be. The man you describe simply does not deserve the title "father." He has no place in your life.
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