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male
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36-40,
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writes:Hello dear people,(First thank you for taking interest and for your time to read, review my question)Concerned subject : SexualityI thought a lot on how to draft my concern. Let's see. I am 22 years male, educated, responsible and working in an IT industry. I am really self confident and smart at working and accountable to my parentsTalking about my relation with girls, I have had a very little time with them. Just have one connection in terms of friendship. Going back in my life, till the age 20, it was all good. Good means? I was like other normal(?) guys who like to have attraction towards girls, run after them for flirting etc.Something, after the age 20 and mid 21, has changed. Suddenly, my attraction towards same gender has been developed. That does not mean that I don't have attraction towards girls but a strange change I am noticing, let me help you understand by making points: Before, I was not at all attracted towards men, now a remarkable attraction is happeningDo I have emotional or romantic feelings towards men? Big no, in fact, I get attracted to only a few guys who I feel hot (in now a days)What happens when I see an attractive girl? Before, my reaction was like other boys. That means "Wow, how cute, hot she is! Now my reaction upon seeing a hot girl is "Wow, I want to be like here!I am totally surprised to see that even while surfing when I see some hot images of girls, my first thought reaction is, I want to be like her.I've tasted myself by this way. I have browsed many images where I can have comparison of hot girl and hot boy's images and my thought of reaction. So when I look at two images (of attractive man and a woman), I ask myself, with whom I like to go? The reaction is 1) My thought says wow what a girl's body, I would like to have it 2) Wow what a man's body, I wish to go with himI have then judged myself in real life. When I am with my friends around college. It usually happens that boys discuss about passing girls. So when they say, hey look at that hot girl.My reaction at that time, yes she is hot and then sudden reaction is wouldn't it be more good if I were she????When I am watching any hot movies, now my reaction is to feel what a female is feeling. Before my reaction was towards opposite direction.I want to make a point that I am not a all feminine or girlish. I am pure and sure boy for myself and for my family BUTIf you are now with me while writing and if I see currently any hot image of a girl, my thought would be the same, "Oh I want to be like her" and when I see a hot image of a man then my thought would be "What a body, I want to have a feel of that"If I conclude then the situation is despite I still like girls, when I see them, I don't run after them or flirt with them, instead, I wonder to be like her.Honestly, I won't be going to any counselling and that's why I would like to have your thoughts. Please, please let me know what's happening??Thanks!
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reader, petina1  +, writes (6 November 2010):
 Just sounds like you are appreciating beautiful people and would like to be one of them, either male or female. Are you self concious of the way you look, maybe you'd like to change something about your self but would you go to the extreme of changing your gender. All you can do is keep questioning and analyzing your own thoughts and feelings, then it will come to you one day where it is you should be in all this. Sexual identity is very personal and it seems like you are just on the verge of self knowing. Good Luck
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