Husband has cancer but cheated on me when I was asleep nxt door with his kids

A female age 41-50, *cean425 writes:

well hello everyone i dont know were to start and i have never postd before i just dont know what to do, im a mother of 5 ages 11 ,7,3,2 and 8month old baby me and my husband have been togeather 16 years and we have had our problems alot actually but recently he has got cancer testicular cancer and that was devestating to us so many emotions but since we have so many kids and with his chemo treatmenats he moves in with his mom luckily she lives next door its been 2 months now so ive been home alone with 5 kids to raise with no support and its ok i understand he is sick all day all i do is run from house to house to check on him then back with the kids back with him and by the time everyone is taken care of and asleep its 3 or 4 am so my husband gets upsets calls me names saying im not a good mom im lazy because i might at times try to sleep in after the older kids go to school he has just been cruel recently doesnt want me going over there to see him doesnt call or txt me as much and i thought well it might be the meds so even though the emotional and mental and verbal abuse were alot to handle i just still stood by his side but tonight i was taking a picture of my young girls the 3 and 2 yearold on his camera and i found a video of him and a hooker i think she is he gave her money but he also talked like he knew her for long time but anyhow it was a sex video he took it from his moms house in the living room were he stays on the bed and blanket were i go cuddle with him on and were my babys sleeps whe n we go visit him he had sex with this girl and it was graphic and nasty and he was doing and saying things to her that i thought he did and said to me only so im hurt and angry very very angry i feel bad to say it but i hate him with all my heart i mean how could he screw someone have some random hooker come over this moring when i was asleep next door a few feet away thats all im home asleep with his baby and girls jusy next door and he is recording and screwwing im i wrong to be so hurt now i cant get that image out of my mind of them to and everytime i think of him or look outside at his moms house im freakin out crying i meann he has cancer he is sick ive been there for him why why would he do this i want to leave him but i feel bad after what he has gone through i dont know what to do i mean wasnt it enought that everyday i was called ann idiot no good replacable the b word made cried thrown out his moms house can someone please please i beg you give me some advice im shaking and crying as im posting this ....

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