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male
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36-40,
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writes:Hello, I'll try to explain my story the best i can, i guess i can be considered to be someone with a tough time getting through an old love story and, i guess, some self-esteem issue. I'll just tell you my story a bit so, i don't know, it might help to give more detailed answer.I've always been someone who felt quickly in love, loved my first girl ( i never told her so i guess she never knew) in kindergarten and up to the middle of high school. Never really got heartbroken because of her, i guess i just gave up.I met my ex when i was 17 on the internet. I had a crush pretty much right away and i never saw her. We chatted for about a year before i moved away from my home and went to college. I moved about 800-900km away from my friend and family for her, and still, i never saw her face for the whole year we went out on the web. About a week or so after i moved in my first apartment, I've took the bus for the first time ( i mean, city bus with all the bus number, i was from a small town. I've met her for the first time at her home and i saw her parent before even meeting her. She was beautiful. But we didn't kissed that very time, we kissed only on the second date.Afterwards, we met pretty much every week-end sometime more if we had no class, she came with me visit my family during christmas( it was the only time i was seeing my family) We've been together 3 years, I even have ( and i know it's stupid, and i won't ever suggest to do that to anyone) her name tattooed on my back. Some friday when she was suppose to come at my apartment, she called me and told me it was over, i was shattered. Then, the girlfriend of her brother showed up a bit after we hanged up. She offered me to stay some days at their place. We never even 'did it', we kind of 'had fun' but never did it and she was my first girlfriend.I went back in my hometown a month after it was over. I talked to her twice on the internet ( a bit after i was back in my parent home (she was using her brother IM) and the other time, about 6 month after, the same thing). It was just awkward and i always felt so bad after both of the time.Hell, i work for a customer service by phone and i talked with her sister ( she didn't recognize me) and i was broken down, staring at my computer for 10 minutes.It'll make 3 years i have a new job, 'new life', and i don't feel like i'll ever know love again, i don't feel like loving again. I would love to have a family, love someone, i am some kind of hopeless romantic.How can i get over that story? I get an awfully bad feeling if a girl even smile or give me good regard, i feel like it's all lie.I yearn to be with someone but i seem to do all i can to ignore and push even the slightest interest that someone could show at my person.How can i trust again? How can i have faith in true love?
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reader, freebird  +, writes (5 June 2009):
 Hi,
Oh you sound so hurt..
I think you are young enough to wait for true love. And its good that you are taking time to get over a relationship. Its sign of somebody who can offer stability and who is emotionally mature. But don't overdo it.
You seem to be feeling quite lonely. dear..its okay. Somebody will come to fill up that void. Just keep your eyes and ears open.
Embrace life!!
And why not tale each relationship as a lesson in growing up. As far as I know thats what relationships are: schools where you learn lessons in self respect, sharing, caring and forgiveness.
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