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female
age
26-29,
anonymous
writes: Hi. I am here because i'm just so confused. When I was about 6, my dad left my mom me and my two older sisters. Before I was even born they were fighting. When I was a kid I was so happy when my dad would come home from work, I would always run up to him and I was so proud of him [I dont even know why, he didnt really do anything]. But when you're a kid I think you're always happy when your father comes home from work. So, one night he just left. Me and my sisters would go spend the night with him and I thought it always went well. After awhile, we stopped seeing him. We had to move because the house we were living in was in my fathers name and he wanted to sell it, so we moved in with my grandmama. We moved out and have been living in an apartment for about a year, my oldest sister moved away. Before she moved, we would go out to dinner with my father. It was always a hassle to get me or my other sister to go, because we didnt want to see him. My mom was always dissapointed we didnt want to see my father and encouraged us to go because we would be getting a "free dinner". I have to admit though, he has made efforts before to try to make time to go out with us to dinner, but when we got there it was awkard, we never really talked, we would just stare at each other waiting for somebody to say something. I want a father, but I feel like I cant. I think its sad that I will never get to know the person that helped create me. I blame him for how I act. Unfortunately, I inherited some of his traits. Im shy and I have had friends but after he left I havent had much of any, and I blame him. My family puts most of the blame on him for a lot of things. And I just want to scream at him and tell him everything he has done wrong. I belive this is the time that most teenagers push their parents away, but I want to know my dad. There are many other things that he has done as well. I dont have his phone #, I want to know him. I also blame him for my sadness most of the time. I believe I will be alone forever after seeing my parents marriage crash and burn. Even if I did talk to him, it probably wouldnt help, he doesnt even try. But I have to remind myself that other people have it worse and this is all I will ever have. Has anyone else gone through this? Has anyone reconnected with their father? How did you feel? What can I do? Will anything ever change? Sorry for the long post, all answers are greatly appreciated, thanxxx.
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reader, *julia* +, writes (29 September 2010):
Hi, I just want you to know you aren't alone. It is like I just read my life story. But my sister and my family hate my dad. I'm going through this now and I'm 13. I'm sure it will be all over soon. Trust me, we feel the exact same way. If you ever need to talk to anyone, you can talk to me. :)
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