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writes:How can I feel I have purpose on the planet?When I was in high school, I was a big dreamer. Oh, how I was going to change the world!! I didn't have many friends, didn't party, and didn't date. I didn't really have opportunities to date and was just waiting to take the world by storm!!Well after high school, I got braces. : ) My smile was a big issue to me. How was I going to change the world when I was too shy to even talk? They went on at 19 and came off at 21, just shy of me turning 22...which I will do in about a week.I was too stupid after high school to know that I could apply for scholarships to out of state schools. I always wanted to go to school on the east coast but never thought I could afford it, so i applied to my home school and got a scholarship. I tried to transfer many times, only to be met with the reality that there are not very many transfer scholarships and that I still cant afford it.I hate where I live, i hate my school. I have no friends or boyfriend still. I never changed the world and i feel like my time is up. Im no longer young and full of life. I feel like I have expired. time is going by so quickly and i havent changed the world. I dated a boy when i was 19. he was everything to me. he was a big dreamer as well and we were gonna take on the world together. He left without me. I never got over it. I feel i have no purpose on the planet. People say "oh, you have so much to look forward to like marriage and kids!!".........But i dont think anyone would want me and id make a terrible mom.
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reader, scythe  +, writes (24 September 2008):
 I can relate to the feeling expired part.. when I was in highschool the future looked so bright and I could become anything, go anywhere and just be far from where I am now! It's not all that bad though, sometimes we have unrealistic expectations. Learning to be happy right where you are today helps alot. Being positive also helps - think of the things you have to look forward to (weekends? birthdays? days off work? it doesnt have to be big things). Alot can change in a year, or even 5 months so hang in there :)
The title of your question made me think of God. I found that when I actively pursued Christianity I felt that I had a purpose in life and there was a plan for me.
Take care, and don't forget that life is an adventure... it has its boring bits but you never know what might happen next :) xox
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reader, ClownFish  +, writes (23 September 2008):
 Hey I'm exactly as you, accept I'm a little younger in the process. What I wanna be I can't be because I screwed up my grades beforehand, due to depression.
I promise you that you will have those special moments. 18-21years old is pretty young. You can't even start going gambling in your country.
I'd make an awful mum too, so I started working with little kids as a part time job, and the skills are kinda coming to me.
I'm sure there are loans (probably not the best thing) or other ways of getting the money you need. I was thinking of possibly joining the army, where they pay for your University with 4 months of service afterwards. I kinda feel in that sense I would be making a small difference.
The biggest way, in my opinion, to make a difference is by passing you on. So whether that be through children or by being a teacher, is up to you.
It'll get better though, it just takes time and you just have to decide what direction you want to go in.
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