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writes:why do emotions make me so crazy lol thats not my question but here is some info. I liked this girl in a way I have never liked anyone before i don't know if its because Im older that the last time I have had a crush on a girl or what but she made me feel important so I liked it. Its like some of Taylor Swifts songs but about a girl instead of a guy if that makes sense? I loved sitting and listening to what she talks about video chatting with her just getting to see her. So thats the little bit of background info.Now emotions seem to cause me to many problems I have a lot on my mind more than I care to write about but it has to do with Cancer I am not the one who has it but a family member. This is making me as with thinking about girls and such that I want to be the best I can be at anything and right now I am angry about many things so I want to be the best at fighting. I am in shape I lift weights hard run hard and am 110% in everything I can physically do. to bad my grades aren't the same, different story. Today was a special day though it was this girls birthday and I haven't said anything. I highly doubt she will notice and that contributes to this anger I have not towards her but being unnoticed in general. She doesn't know about my situation and Im not going to tell her. All I know is I get super angry about little things people who mess with me at school are going to learn real quick to back off. Im not a small kid and thats not a threat just a fact I don't need extra BS going on right now. my question is has anyone else felt betrayed/unnoticed/not wanted/let down by someone they cared about or maybe even loved who didn't love them back. Im pretty sure I am not in love with this girl but I do know I like her even know not wishing her a happy birthday may not show it.Im just tired of not having a balance in girls at all right now its either they are crazy about me and Im not interested or I am crazy about them and they could care less if its the last time they ever see me. Is it alright to care about someone who doesn't necessarily care about you in return? its like the Bruno Mars song Grenade. I would do a lot for this girl or for that matter other girls that I like but they wouldn't return the favor. Someone told me I should get this girl a gift for her birthday but she would take the gift and forget who its from or pretend it wasn't from me. I might just be paranoid but today I saw her at the cafeteria and she sat at a table right across from me facing me and I was feeling ashamed to look up I felt bad but just pretended I didn't see her. I could have just said happy birthday or what ever but didn't. has anyone ever felt like this?thanks for the help
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reader, anonymous, writes (8 January 2011): i kinof know how you feel i had a terrible school life didnt have many friends and was left out a lit not physicaly bullied but it always felt it was them and then there was me.emotions are hard at the best of times but when your struggling with a loved one with cancer and your not talking to anyone about it its hard, i no how you feel my uncle recently got the all clear but it was touch and go wether it wud b good christmas not. I think you need to assert yourself girls appreciate a guy with a little self confidence and if she doesnt then soeone will.its not too late to write on her a private message or something just tell her how you were a little shy happy birtday and mayb suggest to meet up sometime, at the end of the day you will know you did something theres nothing worse than wishing you had had the guts to just say what was on ur mind, im almost 20 and have only had one bf now of 2 yrs but it took a lot of crushes to find someone i love nd loves me but its worth the wait.sorry im rambling lol just understand a lot of those feeling trust me and not just rejection from school, guys iv had a lot including from man figures.i hope you decide what to do soon u never know she might feel the same but think you looking away coz ur too shy to look might meen your not into her
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