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xTheAlmightyDuckx
writes:At the begining of the year i was in pieces, i cannot even describe how i felt this time last year and i am sure only people who have ever been through something similar to what i have been through can imagine how bad it felt. It was Decemeber time, in fact it was Christmas eve. I had been having one hell of a year, so far my mum and I had lost our home and had moved in with my grandma as it was our only option. I had lost all of my friends after transfering to high school and the ones i had currently treated me like a doormat. I was getting picked on by all different sorts of people at school, I had fallen out with my aunt, i was finding the work too stressful and to make matters worse on the 7th of Novemember i had lost my great uncle. Because my uncle was my grandma's brother, she obviously had gone into a deep greiving process and found her answers at the bottom of a bottle. So living with her was a nightmare. I became extremely depressed. And I had a nervous breakdown at the stress. After i came out of hospital, for the first 2 months i felt terrible. It was so weird i cannot explain to you how dark and numb i felt. I would spend all day sleeping, i wouldn't speak to anyone I wouldn't get up to wash to eat and just spent all my time in bed. And when i couldn't sleep anymore i would just sit there staring. Sometimes for hours sometimes for the whole night or day, i sometimes couldn't remmeber anything.It was after those two months i found some angel cards. Angel cards are similar to tarrot cards, except Angel cards do not have any bad outcomes, and they guide you instead of show you the future. Anyway i thought what the heck and gave them a try. I cannot explain how i felt or what i saw. After i did them, i just had this weird feeling in me, like someone was out there looking out for me. And if i tryed hard enough i could have a happy future and i believe that. Now i'm not going to go all religious on you, and i do not currently have a proper religion but i beleive there is some sort of higher deity out there and i have all my faith in it and it was my motivation to get better. Ever since i did them cards that day, i have been getting better ever since. I have battled depression, which was extremely hard, insomnia, low self esteem, lonliness, boredem, family problems, grieving and so much more. I am currently battleing anxiety and i am winning, and next year i plan to lose a bit of weight. I don't want a gold medal, but i want people to realize if you find a motivation, what ever it is! it could just be yourself, or family, or friends, your son, your daughter anyone! You can battle anything and you can win. I have had next to no support getting over what i have faced. I didn't even get any support from the uk's NHS childrens mental health trust. They turned me away, as did many other people in the health profession. It has been so hard, but now i am on the right tracks, i can see a future for myself now, i'm back at school and catching up with my work and even have my own little group of friends. I can tell you now I have succeeded in winning this battle because I have my mum ,my grandma, my bestfriend, my angel cards, and this website. I am only 14 and i have gotten through all that. I'm not telling this story because i want sympathy or anything. I am doing it to show anyone out there that if you are having a hard time, with love, life in general, friends work or anything. That you can fight your problems and you can look back and just feel so great that now your strong! even if you don't see you have a future you do you just have to look hard enough and fight hard enough to make yourself one. Best of luck xx from the ducky.
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reader, xTheAlmightyDuckx +, writes (28 December 2011):
xTheAlmightyDuckx is verified as being by the original poster of the question Thank you all for your kind feedback. :) means alot. I will check out the websites thanks Abella. And IAmAlwaysHereToHelp i have tryed to inbox you but for some reason the message thing majic ses i cannot. You can try to inbox me if you would like to.
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reader, N91 +, writes (25 December 2011):
 That's one hell of a journey, glad to hear you've come out on the other side a person that's in a better place.
It's admirable that you're only 14 and been able to cope with that, it makes me feel bad about all the negligible, pointless things that I've worried about in the past.
You should be really proud of yourself for what you've achieved, you sound a very strong willed and determined person, make sure you don't lose those traits and you'll go very far in life.
Good luck
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reader, Abella  +, writes (25 December 2011):
 HI Almighty Duck
your wise posts are made all the more incredible as one realises all that you have been through. You are indeed a brave young lady. Admired by many.
You did not just have that wisdom drop in your lap. Instead you developed it as a result of huge challenges and health issues that you overcome. that takes enormous strength to do. well done for your honesty. I hope that you continue to get good support.
Knowing that you have been through so much. And knowing that I enjoy your posts. therefore I hope you will accrpt this list of short cuts on the net that I read often. As they may be useful next time you are answering a question in the future?
regards
Abella
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Support/Help lines in for Depression UK
www.befrienders.org/index.asp
Samaritans.org
Substance abuse
http://www.talktofrank.com/
Support in other countries
Canada
http://org.kidshelpphone.ca/en
http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/hl-vs/jfy-spv/youth-jeunes-eng.php#ac
http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/hl-vs/jfy-spv/youth-jeunes-eng.php#ac
Australia
http://helpguide.org/topics/depression.htm
Support for teenagers experiencing depression
http://www.hc-sc.gc.ca/hl-vs/jfy-spv/youth-jeunes-eng.php#ac
Parenting and family
http://helpguide.org/topics/parenting.htm
relationships
http://helpguide.org/topics/relationships.htm
Improving mind body and spirit
http://helpguide.org/topics/mind_body.htm
Addictions
http://helpguide.org/topics/addiction.htm
Abuse
http://helpguide.org/topics/abuse.htm
Kicking smoking
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/quit_smoking_cessation.htm
grief and loss
http://helpguide.org/topics/grief.htm
understanding schizophrenia
http://helpguide.org/topics/schizophrenia.htm
Support after sexual abuse
http://www.aftersilence.org/
Aftersilence.org en espanol
Suicide hotlines:
http://suicidehotlines.com/international.html
http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international/india-
suicide-hotlines.html
http://www.befrienders.org/support/index.asp?PageURL=helpAfriend.php
http://www.befrienders.org/support/index.asp?PageURL=warningSigns.php
http://www.befrienders.org/info/index.asp?PageURL=statistics.php
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