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writes:[Moderator's note: some content removed that was innapropriate for publication]helloI joined my school in year 7 (like most kids) and i live in the next town and get the train in the mornings and afternoons. I am pretty mucked up - my asbergic brother abused and tried to rape me when I was younger, but not too much younger. I hid this away inside me but it made me so depressed and upset and guilty, I just fell apart. Amazingly my parents didn't notice, but hey, they don't notice much. So, I got close to one of my friends in yr9 : P (i'm yr8) and I told her about what had happened to me. She's pretty mucked up too, she was diagnosed with a brain tumour when she was 5, but thank god it was a false alarm, but it scarred her for life.Anyway, back to the train. P gave me this guys email address, K, and we got talking, we became pretty damn close too, and we helped eachother when we were depressed. We knew eachother before, btw - he gets the train from my town too, so we have 23 mins together every school day and back, too. P's got a friend, C, who is really close to K, too. She gets depressed, not as badly as i do, but she gets pretty sad, her dad died in september. K was there for her.So, K decided early (and so did I) that nothing would happen between us. we decided this in the easter hols, thats when we started getting closer. Last saturday, we met up in the afternoon, I'd been working at the shop all morning and I just wanted to relax, so we met up in town and just walked and talked for a while, we went up to westcliff, which has loads of grassland and stuff, and were just lying together, talking, holding hands and generally being close. then I turned my head and we were a lot closer, and we ended up kissing, not making out, but definitely kissing. He's not the first guy I've kissed but he's the first guy thats kissed me like that. He told me he was being a prick, but i didn't care by then. I think I've fallen in love with him. We met up again on Monday (He met up with C on sunday) and we kissed again, but only like pecks in the park, then we met up with P and went to the beach (THUNDERSTORM!) which was awesome, but I don't know... it's so awkward, I really want him, and I know he wants me too, but he doesnt want to hurt C, or P's sister, who he had a shot at a while ago. He was a bit of a bastard in yr7, but meh, I didn't know him then. he means so much to me, but I don't know... everyone says we're going out, and it's true that I see a lot of him, but there's no title, and I can't help feeling guilty about that. I want him to be mine, but I don't want to hurt this girl - she gets really upset if he's with anyone else full stop. btw, they've never been an item.thanksany advice would be awesome :)
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 May 2009): To be very honest, that is a very confusing story, but go for it, remember though, ur still so young, good luck xx
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