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writes:Hello everyone, as I'm writing this, I'm very shocked and I think you will be shocked also, as I can't believe this has just happened nor can I believe I'm typing this. Im in a relationship it's not been the best relationship through out, when I asked her out she was scared and so was I because we both kept arguing at the time. We've been going out for 6 months and seeing each other also for 5. Previous to this relationship I was cheated on and even tho I took my girlfriend back I never cheated on her even though girls would constantly try it in clubs with me because I'm loyal and would never ever cheat.Going back to this relationship we have split up twice already and most recently was 6 weeks ago, she took me back but it's been horrible she doesn't want to ring me or face time me. Her texts are blunt and whenever I make so much effort to see her she does not want to see me and when I'm there she gets annoyed at me so easily, it's felt horrible this last 5 weeks. She seems to have lots of problems at home and she's taking those stresses are being taken out on me. The last month she has pretty much said she wants to end it but I feel she doesn't have the guts to therefore she holds on and tries, recently we went out and it was nice and normal, but then the other night she got angry at me for the tiniest thing calling me every name under the sun and I was so shocked.Please under stand my personality even though you will probably dismiss it right now and think I'm just like the rest. Last night I cheated on her by kissing another girl. I can not believe what I have done and what I have become. I am the boy with all the loyalty in the world who would never dream if cheating and I'm so confused as to why I kissed another girl. I feel like scum, I'm punishing myself by not eating hardly today not sleeping and I'm not bothering to go into work tomorrow so I get fired because I want to punish myself.I don't understand this, like I'm the most loving boyfriend in both of my relationships I would come out at 1am in the morning to pick her up and go so far out of my way to do stuff for her, I've really tried throughout the last month and please I don't no why I've done this I feel like absolute scum of this earth. Can somebody explain to me why? I was the boy who turned down girls drunk in the club for my relationship the boy who slagged off cheats and swore never ever to do it.
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reader, lifesgreat +, writes (15 December 2014):
The only way you can let go of the guilt it to actually tell your gf what you have done .
in terms of why you have done it .. god knows ... but the way you explain your relationship is rather bad for 6 months , at this stage you should more or less still be in the 'loved up stage' where everything is amazing with each other , if you are already arguing , bickering and have split up a few times .. the relationship does not sound worth it.
I am like you and totally against cheating but the way people are about it these days .. it seems much more fruitful than ever
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