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female
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30-35,
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writes:I want to get over him and I don't. I feel..know I should but I don't want to break contact. He had always messed with my head. I didn't know if he cared or not. He did things that made me think he did. Did others that made me think he took me for nothing. I was stupid enough to put my feeling in with an online man. He was 25 and I was 17. We had a month where it was all weird because... I had my first jealousy attach. I've never had a boyfriend. I don't regret all that much what happened, I'm kind of thankful it was with someone from the UK - online. But still, I know it was what ended whatever it was we had. He'd tell me he cared about me but also told me he didn't want a serious relationship. We had it all rocky for a month. I was kind of infatuated with him. He has me on Skype and Facebook and Palringo. He masturbated for me on cam and I wasn't horny, noticed he didn't really turn me on like he did before and did nothing. After that I didn't talk to him and he didn't talk to me. He left pal about two weeks after that. Two months later I read something on facebook where a guy told him he'd decided to stop fucking girls on Palringo. I felt that my jealousy attach had been true for he had denied he talked with other Internet girls the way he did with me. About a week later he came up in a conversation with a mutual Palringo friend. She told me he had told her he had gone out of a serious relationship earlier this year. Then he had hooked up with a girl in min September and mentioned a younger girl he was talking with but regreted because she was young the a crazy way. We started the rocky month in September and October. Then a week ago he suddenly messaged me on Skype. Asking how I am. I didn't lie. He asked about guys and I told him about one on Pal and one in real life..maybe it was me hoping but he didn't sound happy about it. Saying he was glad I was happy with the Pal guy. He was older than him, I mentioned that and he told me that it was actually my age what put him off. Then told me I was at an age where I was going to sleep around. I told him it sounded like he was saying I was going to be a slut. He said that wasn't what he meant. Then I told him that I didn't see sex as fucking but more as making love. That I would think of it as a symbol of care not do it for fun, to scratch an itch. He sounded surprised over the mic. Then after that he messaged me days later saying he was back on Pal and invited me to his chat group. But then I messaged him a few days later saying I needed to talk with him, that it wasn't about him so he shouldn't worry. He didn't message me back. Then today I found two screen pictures and sent them to him. He accepted the file I just told him I had found them - which is true and that i had just found he looked silly on them, wanted to share but that I was going to delete him (I wasn't sure if he'd find it odd or creepy if I kept them..I personally find it creepy when I know someone has kept my picture..even if it's my best friend) but he didn't say anything back. I didn't expect him to but still wanted it. He didn't tell me happy birthday. Again I didn't expect it but wanted it. I only mentioned it once but I do remember his because it's so close to mine..I don't know if he spoke to me because he was bored..I don't know what it was. I..he confuses me all the time. Apparently he reads most of my things in a sarcastic way or cold way because he has mentioned it and I have to tell him I wasn't being cold. I know this is not healthy but..I want to understand. I don't know what exactly but I just want am answer to his behaviour. Oh this is ridiculous. He told me he was looking for a serious relationship when he last spoke to me on Skype but said he didn't want it now. I think he messes with my head for kicks sometimes. And..I want to wish him happy birthday on 29 of November but don't know of I should. He claimed he wasn't the jealous type and that it's a nasty thing but maybe he was when I made him understand I was happy with the other Pal man..which I very honestly didn't intend to. Should I just delete him from my Skype to have no further temptation? Did he... Play me all this time? He'd deny he did when I told him I felt played. Did he? Is he *still*?
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reader, petina1  +, writes (12 January 2011):
 Delete him.
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