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writes:We where together from when i had just finished turning 14. He was 19 or had just turned 20. Our Birthdays are on the 1st and 2nd of Same month. Our relationship was wonderful we faught But never anything serious,he would always be mad at me about the dummest little things which at that time seemed like the biggest to me. I was young! It was just wonderful. I started growing into my teenage years and wanting to hang out with my friends more, and go to parties but he never wanted me to go or wanted to take part in it with me. By the time i was turning 17-18 i had already started to grow astray from him. I didn't stop loving him i just wanted to see the world. At around 19 I met my Daughters father..He was basically the one to pull me from My Ex. Which i basically thought the grass would be greener on the other side. Not So ..At all. I found everything I had been missing from My ex in him The friendship, how i would be able to talk to him about Everything, he would come hang out with me and my friends, and party!. Just typical things i wanted in my EX. But It was more of a friendship kinda thing but it just was taken to far after i got pregnant. before that there were signs that i should have seen. But i just became blind too. Now i am 21 with a 18 Month old baby, which is my world. Me and my ex always had kept in contact with each other either tru AIM or MYSPACE but just about 2 months ago i told him how i was feeling and he replyed to me as " I can't belive you would think i wanted to be with you after you did me dirty, all i was trying to do was be friends with you" But Mind you we would talk EVERY SINGLE DAY on AIM and he basically led me to belive something that wasnt there!Now we have NO Contact. and he has brung his new girlfriend around the neighborhood meaning she'll be around for a while! I am completly MISREABLE with my daughters father and have been since before my baby was born. I dont regret my baby at all. But is like I took the WRONG ROAD In Life. And i regret it so much. I live with it Every SINGLE DAY of my life. Thru Tears, Smiles Everything. My daughters father has chased all my friends away. Verbaly abuses me. Treats me like Crap. i thank god all i have to do is go home at night and go to sleep cus i work all day and spent time after work at my mothers, till i have to go home!. My Ex Never even so much as cursed at me.... I miss him so much it has been 4 years and some change that we have been apart but yet I miss him like it was yesterday. I have recently started to see him around since summer is coming he is around more often now. And it just brakes my heart Every Time i see Him! i dont look like i did before!... After my daughter and all i have gotten so much skinnier and lost my good assets you can say My Butt and my face is completly "Done So" I have pimples and Hyperpigmentation marks all over!.....I know he looks at me and is like Thanks god i didn't stick around with her..because I am basically Beat! lol While He's Looking Better then he ever has!. His girlfriend is Real Pretty Beautiful Body with a 3 year old kid may i add. I just want to get over him.. I dont know what to do....21 years old ..Baby..Unhappy in life!....Miss him soo much!!..
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reader, Jaded4Life +, writes (3 June 2008):
Jaded4Life is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThanks Girls!. My Daughters Father Is a Great Dad i should have added That. He is a Little Phyco With her..when it comes to being over protective and all!. But Great Dad Regardless! He Is Just Honestly a Horrible Husband! I wish i could of seen it earlier.
My ex had his Faults But when You are sitting in a situation which is worst than befores you start realizing it wasnt as bad as you thought! We Were both Young You can say He Told me one time " What happened? You were Suppose to come Back to me, I let You Go and You Never Came Back" that just broke My heart!.
I try to leave My husband but he just wont let go...I pick fights just to get away is horrible!
I mostly spend my times with my daughter. I am patching things up with old friends but things are just not the same!
People say "oh Your always going to love your First love" which is understanding..But Still Be IN LOVE with him is just Crazy Especially after soo Long! Is Not Normal too me. I still Cry Over him..when i hear songs..that remind me of Us or when i just want him to IM Or Magically Send me a Message saying That " He's Sorry He Said that To Me, that I looked Beautiful when he saw me yesterday or today" just Little Fairy Tales I have in my Head that would Bring closure to my Heart! Atleast some what! When we spoke we always reminized on how much we loved each other how True are love was. But Like He said he "Just wanted to be friends" I want to Hate him so much But I just Can't...
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reader, Upenn_09  +, writes (3 June 2008):
 Hello sweetie,
I'm sorry to hear your story, I feel your pain and what hurts me the most is that you are 21 and you say that you are unhappy in life. I understand why you feel that way.. but I can't help it, I really wish I could help in any other way...
Don't beat yourself up, God knows why things happen. I think that you need to start from a new. I don't know if you bf would let you move away, but I think that you must. Find a way to escape from this pshyco before you and your little star end up worse. The situation that you're in is not healthy for either of you, seek help if you need to, call your local YWMCA.
Do it for your daughter, otherwise shell grow up with no self esteem or looking for a loving father figure and could end up with the wrong guy...
Move to another place, start on your own two feet, allow your daughter to be raised in a healthy place where she can dream and have a happy life. Move away and you'll forget about your old bf (which btw sounds like a total ASSH*LE!).
Time, patience and distance cures EVERYTHING!, re-discover your beauty away from all that garbage, you owe it to yourself and your daughter.
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 June 2008): Well, i always tell my friend that "you are too precious for him". Don't know if it will work with your case but i do hope it will! :D
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