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writes:A year ago, I was ready to move to another city, transfer to finish school and leave sex work behind. I had been an escort for over 2 years, had a failed marriage and a child not living with me because of my unstable and crazy lifestyle (he lives with his father and I'm now more involved). I had been experimenting with hallucinogens and party drugs and doing fetish, escorting work and dated sugar daddies. The weekend I was moving away (SUV all packed up and ready for a new life), this old fling (not a john) contacts me out of the blue to tell me I should enjoy one last weekend by the beach. So I stayed the weekend and it was pleasant. We ended up taking LSD and becoming so close... At a spiritual level. I never felt something like that before. He begged me to stay and I moved in. 2 months later he proposed. For the first months everything seemed great. Then I realized certain problems. He knew my past and was willing to accept me so long as I never prostituted again. So I turned to dancing but the money just wasn't good enough, I ate right through my savings and struggled to cope with not making thousands anymore. Also, he was having to financial problems. He is 20 years older than me and I was so spoiled by older men. That it was very difficult to adjust to having to pitch in.No here I am, 1 year later. I'm a dancer and I do OK. But I miss hooking and I still want to further my education. I wonder if leaving my exciting life to settle for him has been Worth it... We always bicker and he's starting to age before my eyes. He's not rich enough to satisfy me and that bothers me.. I wish he would let me hook.
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 October 2014): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI LOVE that answer.
There are plenty of issues in the relationship as well.
I would to add that I am now 100% sober and have been for several months. I'm very happy about where I am personally excluding HIM. I'm focused, I have goals and I'm SOBER!
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reader, janniepeg  +, writes (27 October 2014):
 I had never been brave enough to do escorting. You've been in it for so long, so you should get as much as you can out of this, such as a college degree. You wasted your resources by being with this old fling, who is crazier than you are. Remember the reason you did this short cut of money making is that you want your education and a luxury lifestyle. To marry him now is to put an end to your ambitions.
I am never a person to tell people to continue selling their bodies but in this case you are enjoying what you are doing, so why stop.
This relationship will not last because you don't love each other. He's doing this thinking he is doing you a favor by buying you out of this pitiful profession when in fact you are still missing the exciting lifestyle. He also has this midlife crisis and afraid of being alone. He thinks you should be thankful that a man wants to commit to you. You always bicker and that's a bad sign.
Very people can imagine doing escorting. They feel it is something to do at the last resort. But by marrying him it seems to be a worse choice. My opinion is you were already in this business so get the most out of it before you retire from it.
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