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writes:Lately, I've been having a series of really vivid dreams. Some of them seem to have a dark thread running through them, and I'm getting scared because I do terrible things in my dreams. I'm so angry all the time. In waking life I force myself to focus on my goals and the things I have to be grateful for, but when I dream, all the anger comes out and I do terrible, sometimes violent things. The other night I dreamt that I was driving a bus, but it was out of control. When I would sit in the driver's seat, my feet couldn't control the pedals and in order to control the accelerator and brake I would have to take my eyes off the road. It was careening down a road and in the middle of the road was a couple, a boy and a girl (I can't remember what age, my age or a little younger). The girl seemed to have been injured in some sort of accident but the boy was comforting the girl and telling her how much he loved her and holding her. Here's the WEIRD part: They were sitting right in the middle of the road, in the line of fire of traffic! My bus was about to hit them, and for some reason when I tried to brake, the brakes wouldn't work. This sounds mental I know, but when I was about to hit them, I didn't feel particularly bad about it. I remember thinking, "It serves her right for having a boyfriend who loves her." I'm afraid that I'm becoming bad and I have to fight to supress my anger. It's like a fire that I stomp out when I'm awake but my sleep fans the flames. I'm not even sure what is making me so angry.I'm so scared that if my friends found out, they'd think I was a bad person or hate me. I'm so afraid of being alone. I'm so scared to confide in anyone because I don't want to alienate myself from people. Am I becoming evil? What's wrong with me?
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reader, 2old4this +, writes (28 March 2009):
 I think that maybe you have spent so much time focusing on all the positive things in your life that you havent dealt with the problems, however small, that you may have. For instance, how is your love life? By some of what you said you may need to start putting yourself out there more looking for the right guy. Even though you are in charge of driving your life(bus)you still feel out of control. So start dealing with that in your awake time. Don't be scared to confide in someone you know cares for you either. Oh, if you are a religeous person, it couldnt hurt to attend church. But thats if you do that. To each his own.
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reader, anonymous, writes (28 March 2009): I really have a lot to be grateful for... I don't think I'm ready for a relationship and sometimes I feel guilty for wanting one. I think, I'm such a pig, I should be grateful for all the stuff I have in my life.
Then I see my friends getting in relationships and I feel angry when they stop talking to me and ignore me.
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reader, anonymous, writes (28 March 2009): I felt like this dream was a catharsis and that (this sounds cheesy but I can't help it) my sleep fans the flames of the anger that I try to supress during the day.
Something about the boy loving and comforting the girl made me angry. She was hurt in an accident already (before my bus hit her) and I just felt resentment and anger rather than compassion, in the dream I didn't feel bad about running over her.
Thanks for your answer though.
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