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writes:Hello again I know this is stupid and im ashamed and annoyed with myself along with hating myself right now. I slept with a prostitute again and have no idea why i was doing well... booked my retreat holiday to thailand where im doing a fitness camp ( intense) for a month to get away from my life here..I mean i dont like drinking, going out at night, clubbing or partying which is fine i like having relaxing evenings but no1 seems to like this any more? Especially at university. So im not sad about my life as i like the relaxing nature of it atm and i like that i am independent but it really annoys me that i do this from time to time.. it used to be alot but its stopped and happens in burst every month or so and i dont know why?Im hoping my thailand trip will tire me out help me become a stronger person ( doing muay thai) and start making me love my self because of it. I go to the gym alot so no ashamed of my looks just every1 can improve and again the camp will do that to me :).. I dont plan on going out in the evenings as ill be alone for one.. and 2 as i said it doesnt work for me in the country ( partying drinking) it wont there which is fine :) Im kind of taking this as a rehab/retreat thing im doing and really hope i come out better from it... Im planning for the evenings to have early nights ( will need to as i have to wake up 6 am every mornings for training and ill be tired from afternoon session) and read some books... I was thinking of a self help book for self-esteem any one have any ideas? I'll also take a short story book on greek myths ( i like these) and another book on chinese astrology (im not chinese) as i like this kind of stuff and might help me discover the type of person i am..Im also wondering why out of no where these urges to see ones comes along and i cant help it... i can help it for a while but every now and then its just happens ;( To add to that if i didnt mention before my life is lonely but i kind off like it just not that aspect of it
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reader, sp0307 +, writes (6 April 2010):
sp0307 is verified as being by the original poster of the questionHello im not really looking for a FWB but thanks for the reply... also im not mean to these girls they always say im very shy etc.. but thats not the point.. Thailand is a strange source i know but the trining twice a day and doing something i love ( fitness) is going to knacker me out so i wudnt have time for all that as i said in my post :P Which is good plus im going really down south of phuket which is less touristy so that would be good too
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reader, baddogbj  +, writes (6 April 2010):
 Sounds like you're doing something really positive with the Muay Thai fitness camp. I've heard good reports of those. It does seem however that Thailand is a strange choice of destination if you are seeking to deal with a "prostitute problem"
On the other hand you could simply stop beating yourself up about seeing prostitutes. I don't know much about prostitutes in the UK but in Asia they are generally poor farm girls making the best go of it that they can and 9 times out of 10 they are simply lovely people - so keep yourself clear of disease, treat them well and you will have added a small amount to the sum total of human happiness.
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reader, anonymous, writes (6 April 2010): As you like your life as it is and dont seem to be actively looking for a girlfriend maybe your urge for sex gets the better of you from time to time and that is why you visit prostitutes. Its one way of scratching your itch but it cant take the place of a significant other. As you feel shame for paying for sex. Why dont you look for a FWB. So many people seem to have those now. Would that make you feel any better?
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