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36-40,
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writes:Just stopped talking to my first love about a month ago. Her drug abuse among other problems made it difficult for me to speak to her at all. Today I just found out that she's dating this dude who does cocaine...in my humble opinion that's not exactly a huge step up from myself, but whatever. When I learned this I wasn't...heartbroken exactly, just a little dismayed.Anyway, here we are july 28 and I still think about her several times a day everyday while she's out partying it up and getting high with drug abusers. I lost my virginity to her and loved her with all my heart for at least 2 years. I mean we had sex on June 9th! She was my first girlfriend and it's hard readjusting to not having someone in your life anymore. I mean, I'm not depressed or anything, but I definitely prefer having a girlfriend to not having one...it was easier to be alone before when I didn't have anything to compare it to ya know? But now, I really miss having that relationship. I suppose this new dude she's with is a much better fit for her. I mean, they both do drugs everyday as opposed to me who I guess is a straight laced "Downer". She only smokes weed as far as I know, but in a relationship with a dude who does coke who's to say he won't get her into it one day? That's irrelevant at this point cause she's not my problem anymore.I want to know is it normal for me to think about her so much? Will I always think about her?
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reader, anonymous, writes (29 July 2008): I'm sorry that you are in pain right now from the loss of your relationship. I don't blame you for not wanting to be with someone who does . I have an aunt that was into and it simply ruined her life. I'd say you will miss her for awhile. You will miss the physical and emotional intimacy that you shared with her. But time will heal your heart. Day after day it will get a little easier. One day you will meet the right and she will mend your heart completely. Until that day stay strong and know that you made the right decision.
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